Nameless Bonds..

There are some bonds that starts and it’s just there…
They sail through beyond the distance…
They never grow out with less dialogs…
They never fade with silence..
They don’t come with doubts…
They don’t come with expiry dates…
They exist beyond time..
Where we live in such a cynical world…such bonds are a blessing..
 
When you know they are there , no matter what..
When you know they are there, just a thought away…
Even when life is getting busier even for a call…
Even when life changes priorities every moment..
And when people say, they don't work that way…
I can shout out to them and say, you are wrong…
Some bonds, they don’t turn weak with changing life..
Some hearts were meant to be all the time strong…

To call us best, special, timeless, forever,

wonderful, lifetime....it doesn't matter...            

Some nameless bonds are needed in life...

On your day,...
I wish for you all that I wish for myself…
Today, Every day and Beyond…
 

Ksheama, Happiest Birthday my dear..:-)

Naughty Forty

When I stepped into 30, i wrote about it... 

Me on my 30

This time the feeling is different... I am happy on stepping into 40..I am ready to be the 40 gang girl...

It's not a big sad feeling and not the drama queen who wants to shy away of forty today. ... 

Today i am just a new person...in the old way...

.. i am so happy to be born ...

Born for great parents who loved me and made me who i am, and a big family..who blessed and supported me...

Born to pass my teenage with dramatic ways having no clue what life is all about..

Born to experience my 20s all the emotions one would want to before getting into womanhood...

Born to experience my 30s all the love of having a partner in life and the blessing of having a wonderful daughter...

My heart is still not come to 40s..

Yes the body says different though that you can't do the same thing as you did in 30s...

Yes the mind is there to remind me a hundred times, not all of it works same for me as I did in my 20s...

It's not an easy path ahead...

It's a choice every day, all of what I learn over years, it's that time to use into my next phase  or may be unlearn some and do a fresh start..

Naughty Forty is not just for all...but i would love to make it so...enjoy what I love to do. ..

No oath, no promises, no nothing as usual ...nothing i feel to bring in a change in me..

Just go on saying, doing, thinking, writing with things that makes me feel better, live one more  decade before I mark half century...

If I can make you happy, so am I. 

Happy 40 to me ,April 15 2022

41 years of 'BEING TOGETHER'

On this occasion of your anniversary... 

I recollect this amazing ride you guys have shown us on what is BEING TOGETHER should be.. 

 One side, I like to thank my Mom for bringing up two souls like me and my brother in this world with her man... 

I love my mom in their journey... for keeping him healthy, safe, keeping his spirits high, cooking and meeting his taste buds, traveling with him in all moods of my dad.. and sacrificing many things along the way.. 

When they make it count one more year together, the other side, I believe it's an achievement of my dad's determination to live, live life the best way a man can can possibly live...

I love my dad for giving his better half the choice to be her true self, give the respect and the independence in every full and best way a lady deserves.. 

The agreeing in disagreement to be together, not to lose hope or not to stay apart, never to be separated  no matter what comes in your way....both being different and able to ride on the same horse... Your life is what inspires us and what you have shown us in your lifetime is what we aspire for....

In one way I remember my grandparents too on this day for the values they passed on to you which reflects what being a family is... 

 Blessings is what I seek and prayers are what I can just return to them for their long life together. 

 

Like how you don't get to choose your name, you don't get to choose who your parents are... 

But any day I can be sure, in many many many after lives to come...

I would pray to be reborn as your daughter and will try to make my life worthy of the virtues you instilled in me... 

Happy 41st Wedding Anniversary Mummy and Dada.... 

Love you more each day!!  

To You My Dear On Your Birthday....

To have a sister love is always a lucky thing in life...
sisters are always our first friend in life...
sisters are more than your guide, more than secret keepers...
sometimes the biggest enemy too...and sometimes too sugary..
sometimes they are bossy....and sometimes very silly...
sometimes they tease each other to death…and always a shield too..
amidst all the drama... sisters do love each other…miss each other...
...and they care for each other...in all the phase of life..

The younger days have faded so fast…I have seen the you in you...
I know where you have been...and knows where you want to go..
I can fight with you for your dreams...share the broken heart...
I sometimes get you punished and yes I do become a real pain..
I do mess your life....so to get you out of the dried well..
I push your harder to chase the unseen you to touch the skies..
I am glad I can be your friend, and can call when things aren't right...
I am glad you love me the same and looks upon me for things..

Things are a million if I want to share how I feel every day of you…
But on this day..... my younger sister...let me say this...

“Friends will be there for all the party in life..
Lovers may crash land and then part with you...
But sisters floats on top of all things that would sink any friendship...
Sisters emerge in a thousand styles to support your back…”
And when I hug and kiss you...I know you are loved....
And you are my family...and that means much more..
So when the cloud is thick and done with the heavy rain...
And the sky is clear...just close your eyes to be sure that..
Whatever you do, whatever shape you are..
I would still be here for you...
Love you Bodhu...

Moments with you are forever!!

The last weekend – was filled with her thoughts only...
It’s a sad and shocking news to me...thoughts of that this should not have happened to her...
Everyone who knew her for sure will be having their heart broken...

I met her only once.. at the Grand Velas, Mexico – where we celebrated our GXS President’s club award...
Our friendship journey began since only then...
We shared about our relations.... talked like we knew each other for years.. about Bill...
... her daughter Katherine...how much she was preparing for the big day of her little girl..
We talked about our days in GXS , the difference of 0 from 3 to 30... sharing our laughter..
We both loved that trip so much, we used to talk over it again and again..
When our relation grew over Facebook – it was a magical love I was being showered to....
In every word of hers were a smile inside......it’s like happiness is in her all the time..
I remember the long chat we had last time – where we planned her next visit to India ...
and the promise I made to take her...those places she wanted to...
Now all those conversations are just sweet memories...for me...

I was checking those FB walls posts, photos, messages and thinking again and again about her...
I can never write the best words of tribute to Lisa, she was much more than that..
She was such a beautiful lady , an amazing human being...
Now that she is no longer with any of us.. my prayers go out to Lisa that her soul rest in peace..
Prayers to Bill and Katherine...that they get through these hard times of their life...
May God give strength for all of us to deal with this loss...

A sum of the moments I shared with her... in this snap...
Can never forget her....can never forget her love...
can never forget those wonderful moments we had together...
.... she is always alive in me....with the love she spread just by her smiles..
I am missing her , would miss her, keeping those wonderful memories always...

Moments with you...my dear...Lisa N Farwell are forever...!!
I am sure for most of us who knew her – it’s like that – forever..!!




In Memory of...
Mrs. Lisa Northcutt Farwell
April 4, 1962 - August 21, 2014

More than words

There would be no need of a picture if I could say it in words...
There would be no portrait of landscape if I could describe its beauty...
There would be no reason to paint if I could express in words...
There would be no reason to sculpt if I could read the letters...

When language and words are not enough - I get help from the pictures..
It’s so true that pictures speaks more than a thousand words...
I have used it several times – to speak out what I really want...

Last weekend when I met my friends.. I got gifted with a sign of love...
It was a handmade quill art – a sign of my football passion...
I busted into tears when she handed over me a gift...

When I cried , may be it came as a surprise to many...many never saw me cry..I guess...
It didn’t matter to me – that I was crying in front of all others...or if someone was looking at me..
It didn’t matter to me what she had done with her art ... it was the feel of being special..
I have never expressed to her - how much her friendship meant to me ..
Those special days in school and being a family she was more than a friend...
I would have never known what she still feel for me – if she had said it in words...
This frame of love – spoke to me that moment – I had missed her for years...



When all the years passed away – in not being with you...
When all time went on – in not being in touch with you...
I regretted all those moments of my life...when u needed me
My tears just took the way out to express that I missed you...

You just didn’t gift me a piece of frame of my passion..
But yes – it’s a gift of your time, your efforts, your skill, your sleepless nights...
A gift of your love.. I love you my dear...I love our relation...
I wish I had the best picture or frame to express it the way you did..!!

The We Tomorrow..!!!

The D day is arriving and is just hours away....
When all the questions will be answered tomorrow... ....
The day will be busy with FB feeds, posts likes, comments,
The media and news channel ticking every moment to give the lead scores.....
When more messages ,slogans and comic pictures fly in whats app...
A day to know where our nation stands...
A day to know where our nation is moving to....
A day where finally all the debate comes to an end....
A day where really some hearts rejoice and some broken....

Yes, it’s a big day for all of us...
For those who voted...the anticipation of candidate winning... to many more to a party...
For some who did not vote or couldn’t vote... yet looking forward to tomorrow’s final verdict...
For some NRI’s whose heart beats in this country still....
And to many who looks forward to this country ..across the globe...
And yes it’s a big day for those too...who do not even know what is happening..

My opinion of who should win and why they should win ... is all washed out...
There is nothing left to post, comment, say or fight or debate or scream ...
The decision is already made – now the revealing has to happen......
Whoever presides the nation ... it’s my decision, it’s our decision...
And all we are left with is... the hope ...that is just alive in all of us...
That the government realizes what this nation need, what people of this country dream to..

As a citizen of INDIA, I am so proud to be here, be born here and I will always be proud....
With all the bloodshed, sacrifices made... We are a free country...
Being a democratic – We the people survived all these years..
We have enough strength and power to survive better than this...
Let us not be brainwashed with the promises anyone made...
Let us not rewind any of the deceitful campaigning they did...
Let us look forward – what happens in the coming days in INDIA...
Let us feel the things they do, they don’t do, they make us do...
Let us realize the love and duty of being an Indian.......
Keep your eyes and ears wide open....and be the judge of ‘Your vote’


Hope the day gets over peacefully..... be safe.

Thinking of My Best friend on My Bday...

There is always a best friend for everyone.. in some way or other .... And yes, even I have...
.. I had one best friend… then it became 2….slowly to 3….at last when it became more than 5…I tried to put them in buckets....
A bucket of Good friends, another of Close friends, then Bestest friends, some Soul friends, counted Lifetime friends…

The definition of a best friend to me is changed over the years…
My Best friend for me is now like all the ones I will never forget in my life… coz some friends are best at what they are….best at what they do to me… best at what they make me feel….
I have been so lucky to have some numbered friends in my lifetime... Without all these crazy ones… I can never be the real me..


1st – the one who loves me whatever shape I turn to, whatever mood I am on...whatever mistakes I do..
2nd – the one who I haven't seen for years... but the heart reaches out to them when glad and sad..
3rd – the one who I worry about if I don’t get a weekly call , then we chat for minutes without running out of topic..
4th – the one who I would be hurt if I didn’t knew the big and small things happening with them...
5th – the one who is there on gmail, fb, whatsapp, skype, msg, calls..name the app - whenever I need ..anytime...
6th – the one who calls whenever in town and try to squeeze in the talks - out of town topics and relive the past..
7th – the one who I see almost all day, shares bunches of this and that.. bears my drama and never fed up of the real me..
8th – the one for whom I hop on bike , ride to their home, meet them - for those are real busy bees in life...
9th – the one who is just there to say a hi -hru - and wear a smile , doesn’t matter we knew the current affairs..
10th – the one who lives on my FB likes and comments - and makes me feel - we are still on baby..
11th – the one who I lean on for pouring out my weirdest and confused emotions – and exactly knows what to say to me..
12th – the one who I dial /message immediately whenever something big is happening to in my life…
13th – the one who wishes on my bday every year. ..I dial on his and he on mine.. enough to let know we are special friends...
14th – the one whose voice I always recognize even at any wakeup call of my tightest sleep…
15th – the one whose blogs I read - doesn’t matter if seen each other for years or never will be able to meet in life..
16th – the one who is a colleague, being with me in the 4 walls , bearing all my daily tantrums at work…
17th – the one who is across the sea and let know of all the special things once a while in a call…
18th – the one who you know they are the same even if you don’t call them once a week, a month or in a year..
19th – the one who in my school/ college , who knew the teenage me , knows the new me in 2014 & still love the way I am…
20th – the one who misses my bday all years– and later dials in to tell that with a sorry face to let know how special I still am…
21st – the one who is so afraid of losing me with time – amidst of all other friend waves that surround me…
22nd – the one who brings a tear in my eyes when they cry, that’s when I know I don’t like them being sad..
23rd – the one who always prays for me every night & wishes all times best to happen with me..
24th – the one who always runs to me when in need and I know exactly what to say to make them feel good..
25th – the one who is always there for a glass of cheers and never says NO for a drink with me..
26th – the one who showed me how to be in love, how to be loved and drifted away holding a broken heart..
27th – the one who is much more than a friend and holds a special feeling in my heart …
28th – the one who knows to read my mind when my lips are sealed and is sure something is not right with me..
29th – the one who breaks my trust every time and I just can't let them go for I love them in some ways..
30th – the one who is always proud of the person I have become in life and aspires my wishes as their dreams..
31st – the one in my family – my father, mother, brother, sister, cousins , my aunt ,uncle, my grandma , niece or nephew.. the one at my home that knows the naked me..
32nd – this B'day.. I hope to find a new bucket…and the Love is set ON...Ready to give, give, give..... and live on... :-)

Dedicated to all my friends who touched my life....
You should know that.. you for sure, totally and definitely made a difference in my life by just being there …

Happy Birthday - her adios to teeenage...!!!

To my sister...
whose steps I have seen when she was 2… and now she just turned 20...!!!!
Ooohhhhh.....Awwwww!!!

My heart drips for she is leaving her teenage....a time where you’re babied so much more...
But yeah....a silent happiness comes inside me as well....
As she turns into a pretty young lady today... :-)

You my dear...
Amazingly Cute as a baby...
Chubbly Bubbly as a child...
Sniffling Queen as a kid...
Strikingly Beautiful as a girl...
Wonderful friend as a sister...
And now I know you will rock as a fine Young Lady...
You don’t give me a heartache anymore...
As I know you are ready to win all hearts... :-)


Fortunate enough to hold you in my arms....
Lucky with time we have started walking hand in hands....!!!


Love you – my dear...sis...
May all your dreams come true!!!

PS: Celebration all these years as a family....miss your bday bash!!!

Ready to mourn, discuss, debate, post !!!

A message in my mobile from my cousin...morning 8:30 am....
I smiled inside and felt like , yes finally....it happened.
I wished if Kasab repented the act he did by his heart – that he was able to forgive himself..
Good, good…. had to be one day....though late...it’s good..I replied that message with a smiley.. :-)

So it’s a big day….expected the newspaper and channels to be filled with news..
some riots? no.....may be some processions and gathering may be in mumbai....
and of course FB filled with this news and articles, opinions...

Though sensed justice is incomplete, felt like...this is a start...
India is strong enough to take this decision - it made me feel I am part of this strength too...
and I felt happy too...yes I felt really happy….that some sort of actions we can take …
Then the usual pros and cons started in my mind...
The mercy plea rejection by honorable President of India marked the start of it….what provoked him?
I wondered what was our PP doing for the past years? was she afraid to take the decision....?
Or is it like this is another move by the government - to make sure they did something before the elections kick off .....
is it to cover up all the scams that is floating and have their shoulders lift high so to be the hero...
Will they pull out others too... in the list.... take a decision on it? Or in fear of the community votes - they will never dig them out…?

But why am I thinking like this , why am I politicizing this matter in my mind?
Terrorism has no politics, no religion the only religion it knows is ‘Kill to Live, then you can Die to Kill’

I saw in the news channels MAA Kasab’s photo after long time.. I remember his face so well...
Then I saw the faces of those martyrs who died in the 26/11..
but I had forgotten their faces..now I saw them...
I recollected and remember them....(shame on me)
I remembered that I had prayed for their souls 4 years back....
.....that they died for us, for people like me..


Couldn’t watch the news more as it was just junk...for everything without a pinch of politics is like a dustbin item in our media...
Haven’t got changed with this execution…the channel news and media proved it yesterday again…!!

Always a picture is drawn - that India by birth – is very tolerant….
But in actual I wonder are we….? are we all saying that we can wait and have patience….
We will wait to see these wiped off after some time and not right now?
Or is it that in real we are not yet ready to handle terrorism....
Guess we are not ready to stand the after effects of these capital punishments?
It’s like we are still in some fear… some fear of being crushed…?

Perhaps we are just ready and always here to mourn…
Yes only to mourn, discuss, debate, post and remember the anniversary…
at least… I am doing only that..:-( :-(

For my love… For my dear…

Remembering our good old days….
Fun days at School, Plus two, NSS days,
Our great lifetime Gujarat trip...

Bunking classes...Kavitha theatre...
Baby beach…Sajani’s house out...
Vasuettan pazhampori...18 number bus..
Our coaching classes in tcr...
Train journeys…bus seats one on lap top…
My night stays at Domlur..
Outing in restaurants...
Roaming and window shopping...
Shopping until the night is dark...
Grabbing and hogging food like crazy..
Watching Gandhi class movies like old times..
Little Italy and celebrations...
Those seashell Biriyani and the bottles we collected..
Typical girly talks when there is a threesome...
Searching lost things in room...


Fame aerobics every day...salsa dance and crussover…:-)
Gossiping about all the other things in the world..
Watching those meaningless serials on TV..
The endless list of memories I hold with you..
Beyond words it is...and I don’t need to express this...
For I am so lucky you can hear my silence....!!!

No matter how much old you are ...no worry...just come to me...
I am there to lie to you - “hey...you look beautiful today”

Your Birthday...:-)

Your birthday is a special day to me..
For I was born that day again as a sister....


You gave me a chance..
to hold you so close..
to understand the first feeling of care...
to feel trust that can never be broken.
to learn how to punch back in the fights..
to get hurt when you are in pain...
to love you and know that there is no limits...
to know that you are there when I fall..
to show my dark sides and tolerate with it...
to make me feel how much special I am...

You are my precious gift that life gave me...
A treasure….I can never lose with time or age...
Unsaid promises we share...with each other..
Silent whispers that keep our bond together..


With each passing day you are just being loved more.. :-)
With every moment You are a reason to love you more.. :-)

Stepping to the era of 30's!!

“Happy Birthday” – A wish where you actually feel so happy, and so special…
It’s a moment where everyone you are close with – remembers your day and wishes you – either with a card or mail or call….

In my thirteens to mid-twenties wishes always came in card or posts…
Then it started pouring in sms, orkut, fb wall posts, e-cards, emails….
This time I got loads of writings on my wall….Thanks to FB for being there to remind my friends !!
Whoever expected – called, but some of them didn’t….. I hope they remembered my bday…:-)
Whoever not expected – called, and some of them messaged…I hope they remember next year too..:-)
And there was a load of messages and mails from sbi, airtel, reliance, scullers, max new York, tata , westside, citibank, tech forums… :-)

How these birthday wishes changed with time….is a thought giver!!

The first step into 30’s is never pleasing…. It’s like entering another phase of your life….
When stepping into thirty - yes – everyone might have said this to themselves “I am turning 30!!”
At least all of my close friends (esp girls) had given a sigh about it…:-)
I don’t know about all others… but yes getting into thirties – make me feel a bit bothersome!!
Is it coz I am getting a year older?
Or is it coz another decade of my life is done?
Or entering 30’s is like really a big step where you leave your youth??
Fear of missing the wonderful , youthful days and having an aged feeling??
Was it coz I had an amazing twenties….in my life… and those moments are like best ones!!
Time for being naughty, flirty and dirty just got over?

I celebrated my bday this time at home – with my family and cousins…it was great!!
The day ended with replying to posts – and I am happy more than 50 posts had hit my bday wall!!

Still a thought was hanging inside - I have turned 30 today!! 

Jan 6th -The great news over my mobile

The call was scheduled at 7:30pm from the CEO....
Yeah.... it was surprising...and great to be heard...!!!
Unbelievable it was...

THE GXS PRESIDENT award - the ULTIMATE ACHIEVEMENT in GXS ; this one is the top one anyone can get here.......!!!

President's award is given every year....selecting the top layer of cream....
I am one of them for this year... Being honored for my valuable contributions to GXS in 2011 for exhibiting great GXS values..!!!
Across the globe - from GXS - I am one among the luckiest 10...I am the only one from India, from GXS -Bangalore office...:-)


The CEO call was about 3 minutes and was informed that I would become member for President's club 2011 and I can travel to Mexico to attend the President's club meeting to receive the award..that falls in Feb mid week. Moreover I can take one guest/friend/family with me for the president's club meeting.. I thanked Bob for making time for the personal call and informing me the great news...

With that call ending...I didn't know what to say to myself...Couldn't react anything much and I kept staring at my mobile - he just called me in person ......ooohhh.....!!!!

Hey, do i deserve this? Cmon....no second thoughts now - I do deserve it...
out of 3000 if i fall in top 10...why should i think I deserve it in real..??
Yeah, I am one of them!!!

Called up home, called up manager - thanked him for nominating me...emailed big boss, told to my close friends......over the weekend...:-)
Oh, God - this is so much of a reward for my hard work...:-) what a start to 2012..

The next week registration mail came for the event... That took my breath away!!!
Feb 12th to Feb 16th - A series of event lined up for my award...:-) A relaxation - vacation package..at the resort...in Mexico...clubbed with GXS functions..

I need to get my visa, tickets, lots of things pending and time is so less..
Yeah, decided that my dad is gonna accompany me to Grand Velas Riviera Maya, at Cancun-Mexico....

My first project in this new year 2012 turns out to be "My Award Journey to Mexico"
Start Date : Jan 6th 2012
In progress : First phase - Gathering requirements...:-)

14th year - The Meet was special!!!

I was thinking what to wear, saree ?salwar? It’s after so long years me meeting.....with all...!!! I wanted to look the best....!!
14 years passed after we got of the school……it’s a long time!!! 1997 Batch St. Teresa's Anglo Indian Girls High School!!!

I was so busy at office the whole week.....but Facebook - countdown messages made me feel that day is near...!!
I boarded bus from Bangalore Friday 22nd night...and the bus met with accident... Horrible state!!!
But then I felt before every happiness is achieved - some hard times are there for sure....!!!

I was so excited as the day came.... Got dressed up, grabbed an umbrella and just set off in an auto....
I was thinking will all come dressed up like coming for a wedding? Or simple dressed? In Saree? We didn’t have any dress code…..
Sunday 11 was time - reached around 11:30....at the venue - Malabar Residency...
Receptionist told - its 5th floor – I entered lift..and then the 5th floor came.
Oh God.... !!! spotted Sayana in saree.....Delna and Shumla sitting together - with a table - with lots of papers on the table….
We have a registration desk ?
......shumla gone slim and her chubby cheeks weren’t there ……as she had in school times....
Minnu - I couldn’t recognize her......she was not in my FB frnds list as welll!!! But when she smiled big and rolled her eyes to me - asking - u don’t remember me????????
- yeah!!!! I do remember...you....long hair one -plait two sides.. is now short - and with specs !!!
Rubiyaaaaaa.....I was confused and finally recognized…..
"500rs" - Shumla madam was quick and prompt at it... .:-) Gave it right away….else felt she will snatch it from me….
Filled one registration form - felt like I am filling some admission form :-)
Was thirsty – and at registration desk - welcome drink was there - just had it gulped....!!
Was checking who all came....etc.... meanwhile others started joining in..

Divya CK - no surprise to see her …….as I have seen her twice in blore.... !!!
Then - Shabana, Reshna, Shyma....all started coming in…..
I entered the hall - pushed open the door....spotted - Amritha, Mary priya, Vinaya, Sandhya.....some faces didn’t change at all....
Shirin came with a big cake...Lovlin, Sajani....
In another 15 , 30 minutes…..minutes - all started pouring in!!! Awesome it was !!!!!!!!!

I didn’t expect - that all would feel this much happy on seeing each other....and also that feeling was real - genuine - could actually feel it when we all met.....
just like old times..... all were really happy...... We were just going back to old times...

Our school photo frame was there in the hall - which we started looking at -the change everyone had...and started recalling all names….

Suddenly -one flash clicked from one camera………ooooooooh…..!!!! That’s it!!!!! - All jumped as if this is the first time we seeing or posing for camera!!! 10 clicks from 10 different camera's for same pose!!! and clicking there - here – there……gang of 3, gang of 5...posed for all types of clicks...
Can’t stop to mention - that Delna, Shumla was back at registration desk - still doing their best..... Went and clicked some snaps there as well!!!

Sayana - had tough time stopping girls from doing photo clicks to start the function.... she too got carried away and started posing for clicks...!!!
Shiji called in between – and when sayana said shiji is on call online - we all screamed like hell – so she can hear us !!!!

At last - Registration was done – 26 was the number !!! Some didn’t turn up from the list Sayana had….
We all sat round at the hall –in centre one table was there…..the cake and photo had its place on the table….

Sayana - kicked off the mic by saying some sahithyam words - about this get together....it was so nice to hear that….. !!
She told of friends that couldn’t make it to the function……

Then….
We stood up in silence for our two dear friends Megha and Zabila - who is no more with us.... We remembered them in silence and prayed for them....!!!!

We went ahead with the prayer.... Amritha as usual...!!
"Sarva chara chara shrashtaavam daivamey...sathya sanathaney chaithanyame...."
Amritha - sang it full while we all catched up with her in broken words …

Lovlin took the attendance - she is our yellow badge leader!!! we all acknowledged - "Present Miss", "Present" , "Absent"...
Then we had the introduction session, cake cutting – 14 candles were lit….. the cake was awesome –
We tried to start with 'God bless St.teresa's school....Long may she prosper, long may her children loyal be....." First para itself went down. We couldn't remember it fully... :-(
hmm... Divya CK took the pleasure of cutting the cake into pieces.....
Shirinnnnnnnnnnnnn – yeah fudge was yummy…good choice dear….!!!! By the way I ate 2 pieces !!!

Sayana narrated the stories of how hard she had tried for all of us to make this happen....
I am sure everyone was feeling so happy and so proud of her. This wouldn’t happen if it wasn’t for Sayana!!!

Then we gave away awards to each other….
Early comer to the function, mother of highest kids, beads numbering, lucky person of the day , lean or slim one among us, fattest among us, best dressed for the day….etc lots categories….
In middle of all this…..we talked of Roshni, Priji, Jayashree, Soya, Sabee, Shybi, Diana mathews, Diana thomas, Meenakshi, Namitha, Joker Namitha, Boarding days ......most of them who couldn't make it... all of them somehow came into topic of discussion….

It was getting lunch time ….we postponed the lunch a bit – as photographer arrived…
Sayana asked if we can put photo in local newspaper….. YES!!!!!
Took the group snap – with some of us standing and sitting on chairs….:-)
Shumla was not ready to leave the sitting chair on side..:-) you can see her in the snap!!!
Shirin turned at me - put your hair in front - let all see... !!!
Somehow we all were set - and the photographer clicked it many times – then yes the final one!! DONE.
Just as it was done - I was getting down from chair to the ground - searching my sandals...and wanted to see how the photo came off well or not?
Then noticed a crowd....I was not able to see the guy who took the photo ???
Everyone had surrounded the photo man to see - how the photo has come - .....he was attacked by us all!!! Typical girls!!!
Yeah, we were typical girls - I felt that we had already forgotten our age, that we are working women or housewives or a mother of a kid or a daughter in law…
.....we were just the Xth std typical girls – that “aakrantham” we all had was superb!!! Just like old times grabbing the Tiffin boxes at lunch time….!!!! I loved that!!!

..Then we asked the photographer to take a click - group photo - in each of our camera...... poor guy took a snap in all the camera ......and at the end Shirin's mobile camera too got a chance to click us .. and that turned out to be best shot as per the photo man!!!

Headed for lunch - Soup , Porotta, Fried rice, veg and non veg items - then ice cream and Gulab jamun..!!!Everyone picked food and started having it..!!

I sat with Tina and had lunch, talked lots...- I realized slowly...the bonding is still there - no matter how many years had passed!!! She is still the same and I do care for her in the same way I did years back.......She is friend and family to me as well - I was feeling sad that for so long - why I was out of touch with her? why didn’t I keep in constant touch with her....!!!
Then after lunch - when some started leaving - I felt the same with everyone.....we could have stayed in touch even some time back, a gettogether after 10 years would have been possible....
But better late than never ..14 years!!! Yes - A photo Started it all!!!! Thanks to FB- Mark Zuckerberg Zindabaad!!!

We continued with games in the afternoon - after lunch... some recall names game….etc…
Sumi came –in middle and she sat beside me….she has gone slim changed bit – gone slim…..
She was asked to recall all of our names…. and I am not goofing up – she actually remembered all names – in one say!!! She didn’t take 2 seconds to recall a name!!!!!
Passing the cap was done……Delna grabbed the winner prize… Most of them left the venue as was getting late….
Reeshu joined us with her kids…..around this time…… It was nice to meet her – she was same almost – not much change , cute kids!!!

We were still talking…. some were leaving…some were planning to leave….
Megha’s parents joined us…then…
Felt good they had come…..It was a different feeling….for us….
Had got a box full of chocolates for all of us !!!
Talked for a while, took snaps with them…and then they left …..
To hide back tears and still rejoice in our happiness…I don’t know how aunty and uncle did that….
Can’t write more on how that feels to me…..

It was 5pm – and we were winding up….
Sayana, Delna and Shumla started settling accounts…and it was getting done….
We left the hall…..….entered the lift….. Ground floor first floor, where to get down – after a confusion we all got down at basement….!!
That’s it – done……!!!!

Hmm.. It was slightly raining – I got an auto and headed back home!!!!!

This day is special……. A lot special to me….. and special to whoever came there…and whoever missed……!!!!

My first conversation....

I was a bit nervous...yes of course...
I had the intention of getting some papers signed from her and leaving in a while...
Considering the busy schedule a Vice president of an organization would have... I marked only one minute for the job.
After 2 days – I got an appointment….and there I am – today 12 clock noon...at the big cabin...

I got a seat…and she helped in completing the job I went for!!!!Done.
Hey cmon – time to leave dear...A thanks and that’s it….!!!
I was about to lift my butt from the cozy chair...then the conversation began…
Official….talks….regarding life in office…
How am I finding here ? Hows work? What most u like.. any problems u wanna discuss to me or share...
Yes, it was truth - I replied – if somebody asks me how it is , I would rather say m doing great – than saying doing good.
For I am really happy with my job..the place I work in. A resume history....was given on the demand...:-)
Then we moved on to a bit personal....of my family..my stay..life smooth?
I exchanged a HRU question with her…and that’s it...
I shoudn’t make a blah..blah..blah…Neat and clean - ok, Thanks a lot… :-)

Quit from there!!!
Outside the cabin - I thanked her secretary too... and left the floor...

"The senior most person in the organization.. a person whom we rarely see in the cabin…or in office..."Always seemed to me - talking point to point – well that was my previous experiences….
But this was a bit more than what I expected in the meeting...

I admired her, for her looks, for her profile….for the sshttyle...she carries herself....even at this age!!!!
Now I guess – I do it a bit more....the factor added - atleast she knows me now!!!
Maya Vidhya – It was nice talking to you...today!!!

Not to be forgotten....

The long 3 days weekend..….
I switched on the TV once I opened my eyes…for I didn’t have a plan to get out of my bed….
Yeah, The old movie was playing…
The channel seemed to tell me this “It was not to be forgotten – the reason why Friday is a holiday for you...”
Gandhijayanthi…
The movie on our Father of Nation….I wondered how many times I watched it on Doordarshan when I was young..
The SA train episode, the come back to India, the initial protest...…. salt movement…everything seemed to be perfectly planned in that persons mind…
How can one develop a strategy and be so confident that this is gonna surely work – and make others repeat his word-Ahimsa.
I sat and watched it…...not even bothering to brush my teeth….

May be after getting into my teenage – I always gained more of an interest in watching such movies…
Somewhere deep inside...…I knew….
I admire Bhaghat and Gandhiji – Two contradicting characters in the history of my nation – driving their life to freedom.
Thanks to the one who struggled – for they were the reason why I was born free…in this nation :-)

I had a long weekend – and now hitting hard to start this Monday…....

Mad Blogger Marriage!!

May 17th , 12 pm at Angamaly......

St George Forane church, did I hear it as Asia's largest church..
No couldn’t be.....Or in real it is???

Landed there after 12 o clock, yes the ceremony might have just started....
The big dome visible made me feel, yes it is a bigger church....

On reaching the church , at the front door me and S had a glance of our hero at one end...sitting with his girl...
Dialed up AR , and he came out at the steps with the heartthrob of christ college:-)
Was feeling glad to see them....

Being my first visit to this church I knew I shouldn’t be delaying in getting in..
I covered my head with my duppatta and I sat down on my two knees and made sure that my presence is felt by God....A first visit to church- you make 3 wish ; it comes true...But i didn’t pray anything to be counted as 3.....

Church called up for the couples, some music started in...I moved further inside the church, targeting our couple, so I could get a closer look of them and also get some snaps..
I turned back, to look for other 3...I could see them coming in and my eyes made sure that they all coming in to front side...
Groom was perfectly dressed for the day....navy blue suit and a red shaded tie....and no need to mention about the Bride she was looking beautiful in the white gown, her simple great jewellery, her flower bouquet, hair so perfectly done, veil covering her face....all set up for her great day.
My next look fell on all other couples standing there....
I could see 6 couples...and it was 6th turn to our pair. Oh, One glance was enough for me - no other pair was so perfect in looks :-)
Flower girls beside them...made the couple look prettier... They were perfect for each other...... God, they look pretty together (I murmured within)

When we all came in front side, Chettan’s usual big wide smile came in for a moment...He was looking all of us and kept his smile...He was happy....
I saw his parents standing back of him, and AR showed me Deeps brother, the guy in light blue shirt..

Father of the church started the ceremony... .....Names were called out...
It was the first couple, second, third, fourth, fifth, then the sixth....All gave the expected 'sammathamaanu' reply to the question of acceptance...
The first couple started with the ceremony....I wondered what was going on his mind at that moment....
I checked what he was doing?
God!! He was watching or observing?? No ...he was scrutinizing at the micro level... what each couple was doing.... how the Father was instructing and as couple by couple got wed locked......
I guess I saw some confidence in his face after the third couple exchanged their rings...confident and ready to tie the knot for his girl....so that he could do it without making a mistake in the rituals.....
I felt he murmured something within...
A smile on his face was hard......his body language showed up some tension....
While me and AR stood at one side the other 2 were busy with the camera....
Yes, both were getting some shots of the couple....
It’s the turn now......
The wedlock, rings, manthrakodi....all done one by one....
Me and Joseph were smiling at each other, looking at the shivering hands of the bridegroom:-)
Then the Bible promise.....I prayed for both of them ; for love to stay forever to each other in their hearts.....
It’s over....to be called as one...in front of God.

Now what next? Mass will be there for next half hour for sure...We knew we all had to patiently wait for meeting the couple...
I got a phone call and went outside, and when I came back in , I couldn’t spot where all vanished... I sat near a pillar leaning on it.....I just looked over the church...Beautiful!! And then remembered my 12 years of schooling where in every morning I used to rush to pay the visit to the chapel inside the convent, and say "I’m here to meet U Lord, Aren’t u hearing me" to mother Mary and Jesus and then run back to my class before the second bell rings and the teacher is in....It was amazing days in school, and even after that in college my church visit never reduced..nor now....:-) Joseph had asked me ..... some minutes back " U Christian?".. I wasn’t, still I knew the church rules.....for I had been to church/chapels more than I visited temples.
I prayed whatever I felt that moment, but I couldn’t wish anything for myself...Hmm...
I was famiiar about the mass , prayers and understood hardly some 15 minutes more to an end... Strolled back to where all were sitting...

When the prayers got over..... Went ahead to congratulate the couple...Smiles on all our faces...Happy feeling!!! Deeps mother saw all of us, Manu got introduced.... :-)
All were nearby.... I thought of AJ that moment, yeah he had told me it’s a great miss for him... Of course yes it indeed is. I thought of Arun only then, that he would have shed a tear in missing his best friend’s wedding. Of course yes.

The wait had to continue, photographers took the couple with them as their private property...
AR’s parents, AJ's mother... S's father... Along with 4 of us, we headed to the Parish hall... It was underground... got down the steps....
We served ourselves with Grape juice at the door of the hall.
Went inside the Parish hall, big one, Buffet lunch was set on sides ,..Yeah I could see that.
We walked towards the front row...and looking at the fan we occupied the right side....the 2nd and 3rd rows...
Wait continued..... the hall was full.... They have not yet come over...

Music!! Aloud!!! Yes the couple came in about 2’o clock....
They both got onto the stage. Deepu chettan removed the flower garland and could be easily spot asking her to remove the garland so both can feel comfortable!! Yes, that was thoughtful... rather than carrying the big garland on those shoulders!!
Welcome or introductory speech on the couples family..
Cake cut!!!
Vine!!!
Lighting the lamp!!
Lunch.....!!
All started turning to the buffet lunch kept.....for self service....:-)

We grabbed this opportunity for going and meeting the couple on stage...and getting a snapshot!!!
Yes, all 8 of us headed towards stage, met them, congratulated, and took a snap with them....
We got down the stage...

Some words whispered by S into Deeps ears made him laugh aloud....!!!
Done...
We all set for lunch, Veg -Non veg....
My tummy was full. I had had a Queen breakfast before coming to the wedding at S’s place...:-)

Had to hurry back ....but in that duration ; yeah I made time to eat 2 ice creams:-)
Yes, we had a real nice time together....
Me and Joseph went towards the stage and told both of them ; yes we all are leaving!!!!
Said bbye to aunty and Manu and left the place........by 3 o clock.
That’s it, bye to each other and done for the day!!!
Joseph dropped us to the stand in his car...starting for the journey back.

I was happy that I could attend 6 marriages.......!!! St George Forane church is the largest church in South India!!!

Oh, Its my Bday

I had a nice start of my bday..:-) since april 14th..
I called up all my close relatives….all over the world, wishing them a great Vishu…
All do remember that my bday is on the next day of Vishu, and tht they wished me advance itself…
That feeling makes me feel somewhere I am important in some hearts:-)
Everyone wished me a great year ahead implying the sense of locking me very soon…
The day is just going fine….too…calls, wishes, cakes, lunch, messages, all going great!!!!!

Is Birthday a day for you to rejoice in all you do?
Wishes come in your way, lots of emails bday ecards…..calls come ur way ..one after another…..
Sms memory gets full in ur cellphone…..and wonder which bday wish to delete off and keep the ones…u need ?
Orkut scrapbook flooded with the bday scraps, and u need to find time to reply to each of them personally…:-)
All this signs can make u happy , a happiness feeling that friends are there to care for you…..
Yes, I am experiencing these signs, and yes all these signs should make me happy…..:-)

Happy Birthday dear!!!!


Am not I happy on this day of mine? Yes I am…….:-) Or May be I am:-) Or Am I :-)
At least a big smile always is needed at Shruthi’s face...:-) :-) :-) :-) :-)
All beside her do expect that…at any case...
And I don’t have any plan of running short of other’s expectations, atleast not on my Bday:-)

Though this year...Expectations have fallen short from everyone to an extent on my side…
Last year I remember I had thought how life is changing day by day, and bday is never the same all year….
It’s not that your age increases….. Sometimes the call at midnight for the wish you expect only comes from new persons that has come into your life…
From person that you expect would never remember, had thought of you and called you early morn…
People whom we expect to call and wish sometimes forget ur day……:-(
All this is changing throughout the year….
When some old forget to wish, some new comes into picture….

Mind always stick to the best bday you ever celebrated….:-)
The best bday day you celebrated with ur family…with all around you..
Or your bday day being the wedding day of your best buddy…
Thinking the best b’day gift u got from him..he quitting smoking :-)
The bday where ur colleagues fight to decorate the face with cake creams….
The wonderful bday treat given in celebration…in finest dining hall:-)
Or may be spending the bday day just sitting very close to your love…:-)
Anyways, Birthdays are special to everyone, they become special only with ur special ones around..
Anyways, Birthdays are special to everyone, special ones in life really make it special just for you..

I have people around me more than what I can count in my fingers…to wish me…
So am I luckier that I have so many around to make me feel special..

Time changes all things, and one thing that never changes down is your age….
All says, getting older….. like getting mature, getting wiser…getting…..(I don’t know what else)
I don’t know what all stuffs all have to say……..or write on my day ….
Experience in friendship, love, hate, anger, sincerity, trust, tolerance, distrust, …
Experiences in tears, frustration, smiles, jealousy, selflessness, heartbreaks, disguise…
Experiences in sacrifice, self-control, possessiveness, falling dreams, torturing love, kindness, …

Experiencing much more than I should thes 27 years ; Yes had made me a better person..

I think all should wish on b’day…only one thing.....
To get chances in life where one can just be like a child.:-)