March....marching me a new way...

There’s much to do with the month of March, this year and last year too…..

Happiest happiest…happiest…. March…. happiest smiles with tears flowing around cheeks :-)

Soul mates like us three are hard to find….long lasting relation of all these years since we met….or since we born for each other…..
Being in middle of 2 guys, being a girl and celebrating the friendship all time was not so easy..within ourselves and neither in this world of all unavoidable questions on us…….But travelled all these years long…..fighting for ourselves….fighting for each other….we 3 have ended in nurturing ourselves so well, that we stand as one in our hearts…..wherever we are……
Much more than our first letter ‘S’ in our names….we had lots of things in common…:-)
May be lots things to be proud of this ultimate combination I got in my life....

When he got married last March…. it was the moment of so much of happiness to me….
Inside though the selfish individual of losing the greatest gift of a friend- his time was going to be no longer with me…..

Now I have gone through the pain of losing his presence, I know it was tough for him too….but not more than what I ve gone through…
I say that with so much assurance….coz…coz…..
“”“It’s hard to bring change in life , when someone leave a space in your daily life and move on….The other one , gotta reason to change life, gets involved in the daily day to go…. A new way of life…where a forceful change comes in life… and gets adapted to much easier than the one who is left out still there ….the one who is left out…trying hard to exist with the greatest change of parting with a friend…..””””””
I think all will agree to this if had experienced this state in losing a presence of your dear one….in any ways..


Survived a year… for I have been confiding in my best friend..…and fighting with time…We both were missing his presence in life……in most of the things...I remember we used to talk only of him at some times..
And this time I decided, I would never leave you my friend all alone…for you are my all in all….whom I love to the core of my soul…..
I prayed with my full heart… all days, in all temples, in all churches I visited.. that this pain I’m going thru, let you not suffer…. I wished I could find someone to hold his hands too...a forever hand with him....and I could silently leave him too.…with time….without him getting hurt…. without him knowing the pain of absence of a friend in life…..

This march is come again once more….
Time shows the situations where we can’t avoid.. and see its time for my prayer to come true…God does hear me, not bad!!!!! Hm.... :-)
It's again the most happiest moment in my life, my heart dancing in full swing and sway…
Inside though the selfish individual of losing the greatest gift of a friend- his time was going to be no longer with me…..
This march we three had spent some time together...
And the D day...…hearts full….overwhelmed with happiness….This threesome stands out of rest in my life coz of the special togetherness we share in across distance…:-)
Friendship…..is a blessing..and true friendships for a lifetime is for only blessed people like us..….:-)

April is coming again…
I stand like a broken alphabet ‘S’ trying to mend it up with still signs of the 2 cracks in it…

And I am waiting for the next March to come my way, where I will celebrate 10 years of my lifetime with you both…. and then…… wonder……If the next march is my turn…to hold a hand which I can call as mine forever…:-)


There’s much to do with the month of March, this year and last year too…..and may be next year too.....

ME...in GXS

My discussion is over… Got ME..

I heard most of all are not getting ME, and even if they get ME no hike…this year…

I have not got any comments for improvement areas, except learn new technologies…


Feels happy..:-) a bit relaxed too...:-)


I feel, the very best thing that happened or did in 2008 is resigning from Wipro..I thank tht triggerring thought...came and i decided it in no time.

I cant even imagine what state i would be if I was still there...

31st evening...

New year eve... was special to me!!!!
In all ways!!!!

I wil never forget this evening and i am sure it was the best new year evening i ever had!!! may be a new year night.....so special that i will never never have in my life like this. :-)



Welcome 2009....:-)

Time is not what you think...

Time is something, which u cant fight against...
it shows you only what it likes to..
and there's nothing u can do with it.....
neither rewind, nor stop.....
u can never win over it....
so don't fight.......my dear...
but always and always drift with it...
waiting for it to show good news and smiles.... :-)

Time changes all things, heals all pain, heals all wound..
BUT TIME CAN BE DANGEROUS TO OPEN UP AN ALREADY HEALED WOUND

My first resignation....

I resigned from my first Job....on June 16, 2008 - my Bro's birthday...:-)

I dont know exactly what me made took an instant decision on Friday,and within one week, my papers are down....:-)

and i am feelign happy for i went with it.....

Hope it is for my own good, and God will get me through all the tough times I face in this...

I am glad my friends are there with me, atleast to support, even if my decision is wrong..

I know from heart, i will never regret for this, coz i suffered more than what needed in my first job... not anymore , not anymore....anywhere.....

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I changed the site permissions...

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Nothing works out...

There are times in life where you really want to step out of the trouble room, and find a new place. In search of things that make us happy, there are things we do and say which doesnt has any end effects...or merely no effects on the present state...

Everyone in life , once in a while faces the situation of feeling like this, like exactly what I am feeling now...the only attempt i do nowadays.... is not to feel alone in this lonely environent..

Nothing works out...

be books or tv or music...

or cooking or writing diary ...

or roaming out for shopping...

or calling some friends...

or going for movie...

or talking to home...

or even crying for sometime...

..absolutely nothing...

I am failing in all ways...

I really dont find a way to get out...

I want 2 b happy and smile like others...but can't...

last day...

Today I got a mail from my team mate, “My last day in W...”
I was wondering when is that day , when I will write such a mail...

Sudheer was the guy I met in my team,
At the time of his departure.....
Expressed himself from the heart......
The real pain of suffering undergone in his career ,
Expressed himself from the heart....
I really felt proud of him....though I don’t know much of him....
I wish and pray for him...all success..

for you...

If its with me, I will give it to you......
If its in the world, I will get it for you...



wrote it for chukku...

Not anymore...

Tears are not meant for you anymore...
I have cried for you within enough...

Tears are not meant for you anymore...
I still weep for you within enough...

Flow they, so closer all along my cheeks...
Flow they, like the love I have in for you...

Flow they, so faster than my heartbeats...
Flow they, like the crave I have in for you...

Can’t wipe them anymore inside me...
My heart no longer tougher for them...

Can’t hide them anymore inside me...
My eyes no longer stronger for them...

Life is not destined for you anymore...
I have lived for you within enough...

we come to know

“We come to love not by finding a perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.
It doesn't take a reason to love someone,
but it does to like someone.
And you don't love someone because you want to,
you love someone because you are destined to.
It's because you fall in Love with them,
that you then try to find a reason,
but you always come up with the same answer.
No reason!"

People need love even when they don't deserve it....
And I know I am lucky enough to get the undeserved.....


now posting.....these.....some lines tht i wrote some time back

Do thousand things...

Do thousand things...
To make others feel happy
Sacrifice ur smile...
To make others feel happy

Do thousand things...
To make others feel important
Sacrifice ur time...
To make others feel important

Do thousand things...
Nothign gets counted...
Be happy that you tried...
Be happy that you tried...

Do thousand things...
Nothign gets counted...
Be happy that you strived...
Be happy that you strived...

he.....he....:-)I ate Ice cream today 2 4get the sunday evening.....

Struggling To Live......

Struggling to live for a purpose-I know not
Finding no joy in things supposed to be done
I live, I eat, I drink , I sleep, I talk...
I keep on moving in a never ending circle..
Where had I lost the dreams of my youth
Where had I left my smiles to celebrate
Words do no more supporting for my cheering
Words do no more healing for my throbbing
Like a bird with no more wings to fly
Like a tree with no more leaves to shed
I stand beside this time that is moving
I stand beside this life that is changing
Hoping for a new sunrise to come my way
Hoping for a new crack of dawn for me to live.


written with frustration depression...etc..etc....today afternoon...

Me!! Writing a blog!!

At las..... lemme start!!!
When I visited blogs, and read articles of others, did I ever had an idea of writing on my own..? I surely guess - NO....
Today the trigger has been set, and released...by another blogger friend....
So hoping these first few words of mine, will add me to the list of so called
bloggers :-)

Hope I come across happy times blogging :-)