Monday, March 30, 2009

March....marching me a new way...

There’s much to do with the month of March, this year and last year too…..

Happiest happiest…happiest…. March…. happiest smiles with tears flowing around cheeks :-)

Soul mates like us three are hard to find….long lasting relation of all these years since we met….or since we born for each other…..
Being in middle of 2 guys, being a girl and celebrating the friendship all time was not so easy..within ourselves and neither in this world of all unavoidable questions on us…….But travelled all these years long…..fighting for ourselves….fighting for each other….we 3 have ended in nurturing ourselves so well, that we stand as one in our hearts…..wherever we are……
Much more than our first letter ‘S’ in our names….we had lots of things in common…:-)
May be lots things to be proud of this ultimate combination I got in my life....

When he got married last March…. it was the moment of so much of happiness to me….
Inside though the selfish individual of losing the greatest gift of a friend- his time was going to be no longer with me…..

Now I have gone through the pain of losing his presence, I know it was tough for him too….but not more than what I ve gone through…
I say that with so much assurance….coz…coz…..
“”“It’s hard to bring change in life , when someone leave a space in your daily life and move on….The other one , gotta reason to change life, gets involved in the daily day to go…. A new way of life…where a forceful change comes in life… and gets adapted to much easier than the one who is left out still there ….the one who is left out…trying hard to exist with the greatest change of parting with a friend…..””””””
I think all will agree to this if had experienced this state in losing a presence of your dear one….in any ways..


Survived a year… for I have been confiding in my best friend..…and fighting with time…We both were missing his presence in life……in most of the things...I remember we used to talk only of him at some times..
And this time I decided, I would never leave you my friend all alone…for you are my all in all….whom I love to the core of my soul…..
I prayed with my full heart… all days, in all temples, in all churches I visited.. that this pain I’m going thru, let you not suffer…. I wished I could find someone to hold his hands too...a forever hand with him....and I could silently leave him too.…with time….without him getting hurt…. without him knowing the pain of absence of a friend in life…..

This march is come again once more….
Time shows the situations where we can’t avoid.. and see its time for my prayer to come true…God does hear me, not bad!!!!! Hm.... :-)
It's again the most happiest moment in my life, my heart dancing in full swing and sway…
Inside though the selfish individual of losing the greatest gift of a friend- his time was going to be no longer with me…..
This march we three had spent some time together...
And the D day...…hearts full….overwhelmed with happiness….This threesome stands out of rest in my life coz of the special togetherness we share in across distance…:-)
Friendship…..is a blessing..and true friendships for a lifetime is for only blessed people like us..….:-)

April is coming again…
I stand like a broken alphabet ‘S’ trying to mend it up with still signs of the 2 cracks in it…

And I am waiting for the next March to come my way, where I will celebrate 10 years of my lifetime with you both…. and then…… wonder……If the next march is my turn…to hold a hand which I can call as mine forever…:-)


There’s much to do with the month of March, this year and last year too…..and may be next year too.....

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