Thursday, September 24, 2009

7 favorite songs….

This one’s for you Rafael- - for the tag you gave me..….

In my list of favorites….I do have Hindi , Malayalam and Tamil songs…(Desi ones)
But here I am jus listing the top seven numbers in English..

1. Bryan Adams – Please forgive me..
2. Bon Jovi – It’s my life
3. Bryan Adams – Everything I do, I do it for you..
4. Backstreet Boys – Quit playing games…
5. Enrique – Hero…
6. Faith Hill - There you'll be(Pearl harbor)
7. Boyzone – Words are all I have..

These ones hit my ears once in a week....for sure..:-)

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Hating helplessness…

At times where someone dear to you is struggling...
And you can feel clearly that its utmost pain to them...
Yeah, nothing can help – wait and watch...

At times where someone dear to you is stressed...
And you know the deep rooted reason for the stress...
Yeah, nothing can help – wait and watch...

At times where someone dear to you is frazzled...
And you know what to do to provide the soothe...
Yeah, nothing can help – wait and watch...

At times where someone dear to you is tied...
And you know where to find those chain keys...
Yeah, nothing can help – wait and watch...

Sometimes life is so helpless….And now I feel so helpless...
I feel handcuffed -for the only thing I can do now...
Only thing I can do is - stop worrying of my dear one...
Only thing I can do happens to be the most impossible one...

Monday, September 14, 2009

The typical girl thoughts ....

A 3rd time denial would have been a straight cut to say that 'Get out of my way" ,but yes I was rushing from office to home and wondering if traffic would get me home on time. That was the reason I thought of getting onto it...

First time - I had denied it..saying I was not to that direction....Second time while I was at the bus stop I could see the vehicle getting slow..but I just waved my hands indicating that I am not gonna join...
Daily journey is in the public transport - own bengaloooru bmtc....and yeah my mp3 player and my creative buds helps me strive through the traffic all days...The idea of getting a lift never seemed bad to me if it’s a car I am getting into..But yeah to sit with a guy - whom you just know a bit 'hi-bye' kind of...on the back seat of the bike is not such a relaxed idea....I am so much used to the back seat of a bike since I am ten years old..and I hate the idea of ride with some stranger...it was never a comfy zone for me..be it girl or guy...

I hardly turned or coloured professional relationships into personal taste.....very few in number that had turned into friendships..That explains why I was trying to recall his name - when the bike stopped aside me and the question was just going to shoot at me....It was just a few metres away from my office building and yeah the urgency to reach home sooner made me get onto it...Of course it was embarrassing to hear from him say that he saw me waving a bbye to him on the roads last time and that was the reason for him not to stop... I wanted to say - ‘its not coz I have a problem with you….but I don’t like the idea of it..’ –but I remained shut...
Sometimes it’s hard to be in conversation when u don’t have any topic..but somehow I managed to flow thru - traffic – roads – journeys - harsh auto ridings- drive in rain- office timings – work deadlines – etc… A couple of previous conversations with him had made me feel that he is not a bad guy......I was sitting on the bike holding the back handle making sure the distance..while I would have sat a bit more closer with my hands on the shoulders if the rider was in my close friend’s list.

I remembered when one of my friend AA had told about this...“ sab kudiyaan jaanthi hain ki bike pe kaise betna hai...aur front brake's kaise handle karna hai...tum ladki log sab jaantey hain kiskey saath kaise rehna hai...”

The tries of maintaining the gap between didn’t seem harder, but yeah I thought about AA , It’s very true that a girl knows how to get treaty with a guy....in the way she actually wants...
Reaching in less than half hour...I got down at main road – rather alighting in front of my house – the reason I had to go to travels to cancel and book the bus tickets for vacation savd me... It was a sports bike – I noticed it only when I got down from it as the back seat height was more than the normal ones..:-(
I wished I didn’t …hear that question to answer…
"If you are leaving in the mornings by 8:30 – 9 – you can give me a call okei..."
"let me see…, Thanks" that’s all I could say to him...
Was that to kill the lonely drive he doing all mornings, or was just a friendly approach...to take in..

Thoughts creeped in for a while....A girlish nature of mine never peeps out much –replying in that sort of a way...but I was surprised today – a typical girlish – and her thoughts were giving birth this evening...

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Our Evening Meetings

Our Evening Meetings...
That’s what I like to call it now...
It’s really hard to make time to meet my friend - even when I know she is going through tough times of her life...or even I badly wanted to see her...and even when we know yes its being long since we seen each other...
Planning for holidays, waiting for weekends, that is not there between us now...
Today evening - be it for half hour or one hour..that’s it - its today....
And yes office hours doesn’t seems to gets over by 6pm all days...and making time is also a tough job....but yes we made it .....like last time...

Yesterday I was feeling so happy as a friend...
And I know you would be really happy in your life that I am there with you...
You have been an inspiration to me and I had never thought I would one day have to try hard to make u inspired, motivated , lift you up from the pit hole you falling into....
trying to inject inside you all positive energy I had that very moment...
Yesterday when I was with you...sipping that hot tea in the cup …in A2B, and while we were pouring out each other whatever we could... I was listening to my heart....
"Oh God have I made it late.....I shouldn't have waited for weekends, or holidays or half day free time...to meet my friend...."

No wonder all says- If you want it - that’s it - this is it today...it’s just today - it’s just now this moment....do it now..and yes it applies for keeping in touch with friends too....and no excuse turns out to be real excuses for not doing it...


Yes my friend, that’s it - I would very well want our evening meetings..now and then...rather waiting for a time to come for us to meet in leisure...

I never want you to get lost - atleast till I can buy 2 cups of tea to sip on..:-)