Give me a break…!!!

“ I think you can solve it for me, consider my proposal….now..” - I said with a serious face and a supposedly seducing smile..
“What… hey I was just trying to say..that…..”
I cut him off…..“In case if you really worried of me, please marry me…I am ok with you in settling my life...”
“ Not bad proposal ,but see, you,,know… hm, well.....I am already married..”
“ That’s ok for me, I can feel your love and concern for me….in getting settled ….– plzzzzzzzz get your wife divorced and accept me”
“ha..ha… ha….”
I felt hitting hard on his face and walking off...that moment… when he showed off his lol..…
I stared at him with the look..…so the question never comes out of his mouth...
Thts it....

Give me a break now..... Why bothered about me so much...
All come in my way – just coz I am still single…??
: hey, you aren’t married…still…
: you have to think of this one seriously…
: hope not hooked with anyone already..
: any issues at home with your boyfriend….
: don’t you feel it’s already late…..
: I bet you have a boyfriend…
: all of us are settled, its next your turn….

I wish if I could run away from these usual dramatic questions of life...
Statements coming out of real concern, and some just for the sake of it...….
ah…..
A good job , perks at the end of the month…having enough to spent on myself…
A home to stay on… Lovingly njoing the life….near and dear ones around…..
My life is not boring or stagnant.. its changing each moment .....What more is required to settle in life..
Or is “Settle in life” = “Married in life”
I think then, I have a different definition to the word SETTLE..
My life was or is not just a fairy tale… … so why prick the thorns into someone – whom I don’t even know..
Even if I need to pierce those to that guy – let it be a little late...
Hm...….

Instead of giving hell lots of explanation…I would want to scream....
“ If all you want me is to settle in life, I guess I am already settled with enough…”

I dedicate this one to those– who still stay single –and would want it...for the drama they need to face each day...

Absence is Absence

Times have changed so much - after you left my life...
Its never never never the same......
How hard I try to convince...
nothing happens...life still stay the same....
do things to make me better…. or say things to persuade
nothing happens...state is still the same
"You are always close 2 me , the feeling still holds... "
whatever be the words - plight stay still the same ..

Lovely it was - when you were around.... and each time I meet you now..
...the time stay lovely as before...and brings me in so much of joy…
ABSENCE IS ABSENCE - it has no other meaning..
And I can’t try to change its sense or scene....

In this heart....it knows...yeah the world is changing….time is moving…..and yes, life is moving.... Still it ticks anticlockwise ssearching for the time that it cherish..

Deep inside – a loneliness is growing its roots and crushing my heartbeats..
A loneliness that never gets filled.... the space left by you my dear....

Not to be forgotten....

The long 3 days weekend..….
I switched on the TV once I opened my eyes…for I didn’t have a plan to get out of my bed….
Yeah, The old movie was playing…
The channel seemed to tell me this “It was not to be forgotten – the reason why Friday is a holiday for you...”
Gandhijayanthi…
The movie on our Father of Nation….I wondered how many times I watched it on Doordarshan when I was young..
The SA train episode, the come back to India, the initial protest...…. salt movement…everything seemed to be perfectly planned in that persons mind…
How can one develop a strategy and be so confident that this is gonna surely work – and make others repeat his word-Ahimsa.
I sat and watched it…...not even bothering to brush my teeth….

May be after getting into my teenage – I always gained more of an interest in watching such movies…
Somewhere deep inside...…I knew….
I admire Bhaghat and Gandhiji – Two contradicting characters in the history of my nation – driving their life to freedom.
Thanks to the one who struggled – for they were the reason why I was born free…in this nation :-)

I had a long weekend – and now hitting hard to start this Monday…....