Saturday, September 17, 2011

Scream to make a difference?

It is natural for one person in love to feel that nothing more than me in this world will ever matters to the person I love.
It is natural for a person having a best friend to feel that no matter what happens, my friend is always there for me ...

These thoughts and feelings have no reason for themselves....
We feel that - for we want to feel that way - that's what makes us happy!!
But in real - these feelings have no meaning...at all..!!!
Feelings change , so is people, so is friends, so is love!!!

Sometimes it is just not enough to know that the person we love is beside us...
Its required to have it make it feel somehow - that they are really there!!!

Sometimes it is just not enough to hear from the other that they haven't changed..
Its required to have to make it feel that same thoughts still persists!!!

It is so hard to experience the change a relation goes through in different times....It may become strong or weak with time, but the best times never come again...
It is so hard to adjust with changing time, changing relations, changing feelings, changing reactions, changing words....on top of all changing eyes!!!

It’s true that friends try to be in touch - but it’s actually so hard to be in touch (in presence) after having their own priorities and responsibilities in life....
Still, heart wishes that old times come over, any time call, any time talks, any time see....anytime ,anywhere...!!!

I was in a phase of my life, where i wanted my best loved ones or friends to be side of me....
It came to realization soon - that no matter how deep rooted a relation or love is, there are times where life's priorities take over the value of relations..
Having not felt the presence of my friends, I felt sad...
but then later i felt - sometimes it wouldn't have made any difference if they were somewhere nearby. All would be busy in their own things...
Now it’s like used to not having one beside - when in actual need...(emotional support being by side is what everyone wants)

Why is it so hard to be the same way as we were one day? Is it because change is a rule of nature and all of us are forced to change in some way or the other...
I don't know....why I am so emotional nowadays... and still hard to express it.

Yes, I am finding hard to say it to the world –
“Yes, I feel lonely with none of my friends really beside me”.
I wanted to scream and shout this and say to all my close friends out there , but what if the scream doesn’t make any difference?

This post is reaching nowhere!!! Winding up!!!

3 comments:

Sunitha Achuthan said...

Feelings change , so is people, so is friends, so is love!!! ---- This is so very true.. You belive it only after you experience the change....
I've learnt.. the best way to stay happy in life is to expect nothing from others..and find happiness in yourself
Its tough... might take years to accomplish..Will let you know when I'm there :)

സജിലേഷ് said...

We are born to be emotional and Change is a cure to all emotions....
Friends is some thing you can make always. So change friends when feeling changes :)
"Don't expect..." "live in present..." "forget about past..." all these things are hardly possible. Its my experience, no offense please...

sh..... said...

Thanks for the comment.
@ sajilesh -"Dont expect" funda never works out for anyone living a normal life :-) Changing friends is never a solution to the scene as well.... struggle like a snail to move in this never ending circle of emotions!!

@ sunitha - by the time you accomplish the mission u've set to yourself I will wait for you at heaven or hell !!! Until then i dont see any chance :-)