You , my special one...

Sometimes a state of happiness is achieved only from the special one...
Happiness that touches the heart..and remains in the soul….
On seeing that someone….On hearing voice of someone...
On being with that someone for some time...
That special person is always born to bring special happiness to you…
They capture your thoughts, able to change them in a second...
Enter into your mind pull away all worries haunting you...
And then you feel so happy inside that rest everything seems worthless…

I feel everyone in this world will have a special someone,
mother, father, bro, sis, friend, wife, husband, daughter ,son..
or sometimes in forms of a relation where a name is unknown..
Agreeing to the verity that happiness of life, is all that matters to living.
Everyone tends to seek it…be it any ways….in any form..
When I set aside all my work, al priorities just for you...
Alas the wait ended when I could meet you after a long span..
When I saw you today….I was exactly feeling only one thing....
You, the one where my soul gets tied up tight in your sight…..
Happiness flowed in me for I was yearning for it...
And yes it was only you who could ever make me feel so happy like that...
and that was really enough for me to make me straight...
For I felt really blessed..and yes really blessed..
That I have found the special someone in you..
The special someone has touched my life long time back...
Still stay as my special friend of this lifetime…forever...

Yet to Learn...

Hard time is when you know a relation is not moving on good...
When you feel within that a friend is not the same anymore...
The one mattered to you once no longer seems so important...
The one you cared so much no longer need you anymore...
There are certain points in life where a relation seize to exist...
And the act of pulling the thread starts… by the two holding it...
When it breaks, it just breaks…yes I know for sure it breaks...
As I had earlier written – on A word called TRUST...
It’s become so hard to define, more than anything in my life...
To actually decide on the point of a relation...the real fact
To continue the unwanted…or just put a full stop to it...
Or still be ready to run behind the one you longed for...
For giving your time and then to never see the finish line..

Tried hard to keep the feeling alive, much more in heart...
Was I all these years trying for it...so to keep it alive.
For those who says love is all about giving and giving...
And nothing more than giving, expecting nothing in return...
I ask them – how long you can do it and how far you can...??
How long you carry a forgiving heart that never gets tired...??.
In a long run everyone will come to know..the real fact..
One can never give anything for free..unless other needs it...
If the value is not recognized –love takes form of the Demand-Supply law
Try for a 99% discount offer, it s never sought-after unless real need.
It’s like striking on the rock to seek reflection in dark...
The rock never shines for you – atleast not...in this lifetime.

Value whatever you have...that gives you happiness...
Value whomever you have... who gives you attention...
Treasure them more..in your heart...and life...
Treasure is they leave beside for you...all times.

She...

In this thunder and lightning...
She stand all drenched...
Without a hope of an umbrella...
Like a small kid left alone...

In this heavy traffic and chaos...
She stand all bothered...
Without a symptom of green signal...
Like a strider in the crowd...

In this cluster of clouds seen..
She stand as odd one out...
Without a warn of wind to sway off..
Like the darkest black to douse..

In this widest and deepest sea..
She stand all fluttered...
Without a sign of ray of light...
Like an isolated lost boat...

In this vivacious world...
She stand all troubled...
Without a wide cheer of smile..
Like a still snap with tears..

In this colourful world...
She stand all searching...
Without a shade of colour...
Like a new baby born blind...

In this mysterious game of love
She stand all the while alive...
Without a beat of heart heard..
Like a soul reborn dead for life..

Did I break the thread…

I was just holding on...
And you just pulled it....
So did I break the thread....?

I will always try to say to clear my part....'that you pulled it, it broke off..'
Question is if I could have left the hold ?
But question here is did it break just coz I was holding on....

How can I win over this and prove? Like any other argument that I win -I cannot win this!!!
Some phenomena in physics - apply 3rd law of Newton - still can I win this argument?
Action - reaction funda? apply some more mathematical calculation of force and distance ? ...( by the way in dilemma what is to be actually proven for the thread is already broken now....??)
I think it's difficult to give an answer to this.....that U or ME responsible?

Sometimes we cant hold anyone responsible for actions that occur....
Finding myself in a situation now, where I cannot blame or point finger to anyone or anything..
Ah!!!! Great !!! Yes I return to the old circle...to take a round.
The same old circle where .... where I tend to turn my mind to certain words like
"God...
Fate...
Destiny...
Happens for good...
Learn from Experience...
Life is like this...
Sadness fly away...on wings of time...
Time shows good and bad...
Move on , this is not the end...
Expect the worst...
That was a sour grape..."
I can spot many more phrases....running in my mind....
When something in life happens that is not actually wished for or something that is not actually wanted....or not expected....Yeah!! I turn to that items list where everyone try to hide in, that list to put a blame on - or may be not blame - but a sort of finding reason to the unreasonable things happening in life.....

Its natural of all do that, but I am just gone nuts today...thinking how long will I stick on to this list...
Every time - something happens out of the ring - Wonderful - I find out way to get out of it - only from repeating and bombarding these things to my brain...
I guess now my surviving brain is also bored of these list...

To write the perfect me….

I am listening to ‘Its only words, and words are all I have...” , from Boyzone…
Yeah, in my teenage – it used to be the most wanted ones in my list...
Of course still is...

Today when I fool around with words to make them look beautiful once written, I wonder...
I wonder...which ones would be the perfect that I can use...to express me...

“In order to write the perfect one I want to...
I understand it’s not easy job...
I should be saturated in words...
I should be drenched in them...
Supposed to be truly immersed...
And me never be dried again...
For then at the moment I need them...
They would and should be dripping from me...
Only those right ones should pour from me...
And then I can say its’ this...
I just wrote the perfect 'sh' ...”

So much dry I feel now...when I try to hum with the boyZ....” Its only words, and words are all I have.......”
I wish to get wet soaked in words.....dive in them...undergo a mammoth wash getting diffused into them and not get dried up...
Yeah, and then only can I ......at least ONCE form a perfect line...to express me..