Wednesday, April 29, 2009

A word called TRUST…

Is this TRUST a mere word? A word to fit in a sentence “Yes I trust you”
Or does it actually have any other meaning…more than anyone have thought of!!
People say you can never define love… Some has lots of definitions for it….Some even write essays on what is love..some just stay dumb…
But have u ever thought of defining what is trust?

What is the actual essence of trusting a person…..? Or how do you learn to trust a person?
I have heard a thousand times, ‘It is easier to build trust , but it takes only a moment to break one’
Is it like trusting a person is your own decision? Or is it circumstances lead to feel you the same for another..
Or is it like trust comes up in a relation naturally…
Or is it the other person makes you feel that he or she is worthy of the trusting factor..
Now tell me what is the trusting factor? Have I ever thought of it? What all it takes me to trust a person…
I meet, I talk, I know ,friendship born, bond of love… understand my yes and my no…. etc..etc..countless things…
Or is it just the feeling of love in any relation….the love that binds between the two..responsible for giving birth to trust.

I should at least think of it now…


Well, here this thought came in where I am confused whether a trust is broken? Or when can you actually say a trust is broken?
And does it breaks in just a moment in such a way…that it dies like can never be born again.
When trust breaks is it like things are never the same…..never ever the same….?
Where there is love trust stays….. or is it like diminishing love for each other weakens the trust?
What is the born factor of trust , and what is it that actually kills it between the two…
When I lie to you -I broke your trust?
When I do something that you don’t like - – I broke your trust?
When I act in ways u never thought of – I broke your trust?
When I turn my back to you for another person- I broke your trust?
When I disclose you or your secret- – I broke your trust?
When is it I break your trust…completely…. that a relation seize to exist…!!!
How is it you stop trusting a person whom you have been trusting from your childhood..
Your parents…something like a blind trust for they are the ones you see first in this world.
Your sister, your brother…..for they have grown up with you…in each step of yours….
Your school friend…Your close friend, Your roommate, Your colleague….
Now am I hearing some other voice in my heart, How is it the meaning of trust differing in each relation…
So is it like trust runs in a relation in the name of love? Or trust runs parallel to the feeling of love…
Oh, No I do have a small trust in the Bmtc bus driver? I sometimes do trust him blindly that he will make my journey safe to the landing point.
Then is there a relation with me and him? Nope?? Of course I don’t love him!!! But I do trust him to a level with safe thoughts.
So trust is not bonded to love…yes it may be parallel lines in the relation….
| | Lines in a relation, a relation where name exists or name not exists…or relation itself doesn’t exist…?
Trust, Belief, Loyalty – all linked with each other…

Cut it …Cut it..Cut it .....juz right here....juz now!!!!


Cmon , I am going from one end to another.....without touching what I want to express....

When, What? Where? Who? How? When questions running in my mind….
Juz because I am in the same place again……
Breaking my trust has happened even before…..
The times of shattering feeling coming inside this small heart…
That’s when you feel so bad…so sad….
Yes Its broken like never before…..
Dead to be never reborn again….
With you my dear , how can I ever feel the same….
Praying that I don’t start hating you…
And one day let it come… I hope…
Like me , may be you can never define what is trust..
Like me , may you soon soon realize what is trust…..

2 comments:

Mad Blogger said...

who broke ur trust now?? Know its a hard feeling.. But then thats life.. The people whom we trust most breaks that with lots of ease.. Little do they realise the pain associated..

sh..... said...

More than who..i am searching for an answer how can one break a trust..so easily..:-) Are they completely unaware of the pain one would pass thru....in such state.