I love you so much…!!!

I love you with all my heart..
And this will never change..
I love you with all my soul...
And this I know is forever…

You directed me what’s right and wrong…
You prepared me to be strong and brave..
You shared to me whatever was yours..
You embraced me with all love you have..

You proved how to trust, how to keep it…
You pushed me far to overcome the fear..
You taught how to fight against myself…
You showed me the world and its beauty..

You realized me the value of relations..
You taught the need to be sentimental..
You revealed me to cry in pain, stay unhurt.
You helped me weep in whisper and smile..

You are the greatest support in my life....
You are the greatest treasure in my life…
You taught me how to respect myself…
You helped me be what I am today..

Without you I would have been lost..
For I wouldn’t exist then in this world..
You have been the source for my inspiration...
And I always want to be just like you…

I am myself when I am with you..
no pretensions..with no second thoughts....
no complaints... with no arrogance...
Love is filled in my heart coz of you only...
For its you who showed me what it is…

Ever since I was born in you...
I have been a part of you....
I always wanna be like that…
Never far away from you…

Whatever in this world, I am always right beside you…
I love you my mom!!! I love you so much…!!!

I did it right!!

Sometimes life is too short to sit and imagine..
What I did is right or wrong...??

I liked what I did, when I did it, where I did it, whom I did for....the way I did it!!!!!
That’s more for me...to be sure ; yes I did it right...!!!

!!!!

True love is all about expecting beyond deserved, still loving beyond limits..:-):-)

You stand near the shore..

You stand near the shore..all time..
Count on the waves….and think of me..
You stand near the shore..all time
Sketch on the sand…and look at me..
You touched me with your feet..
Tickled smile.... moved far from me..

Tried to scribble , touched you again..
Tried more harder to reach you again..
Tell you to take a deep dive within..
Touch me to feel how deep and vast..
Not enough standing on the shore…..
Come closer to and then know more..

Trust me for I will not hurt you..
To Uncover the secrets I hold within
Trust me for I will not hurt you..
To Uncover the love I hold within

You are afraid for I seem unruly..
You are mystified for I seem grisly..
You stand near the shore..all time..
You can never taste the actual me..

Flags going down....

This is what World cup is all about..
It was clear…the paced play .... the true way of European football…..in the semi’s..
The way a team should play in the semi finals… that’s what Spain showed yesterday…

Deserved win for Spain….
Can’t find words how to praise their midfield and defending , when Germany is in tears…
:-( :-( :-( Hm.... mm... stil trying to get out of that gusty feeling....

History repeated for Germany to get thrown out in the semi’s once more…
Due that Muller was missing the match….??
Or for the Euro champs to stay in the title….??
Six players involved in the 2008 victory played the games..??
The three man - one ball funda that spain adapted…??
Germany’s all the time inability to play well in pressure…??
Or the Octopus was so hungry for the right food….??
Everything seemed to fall in space for the Spain…
They played truly well…and no german strategy or technics could break that….
I find no shame in admitting that…
Bu yes, I wont say germnay didn’t play well….they did the defending, they tried to move on with strikers..
but in vain, nothing got into bloom.... they always lose the game after half time….
And this time it happened too….like all times...



Now , the flags are down, the only hope is to fight for the third place..
Let that history repeat as in 2006…. And I hope Klose can score one or two more..
Its true favourites remain favs all times...no matter what..so I count him still...
may be last match in the world cups for him... this saturday...hm... :-(





The fever is subsiding for me… like for those ..already gone down for other heroes like Brazil and Argentina….
First time in Finals.....I hope Spain fights for the cup well..!!!!! and lift it for sure!!!

ME's

Believe me, forgive, me, trust me, love me, stay with me, care me , respect me, appreciate me, see me, help me, talk to me, miss me, hold me, all of the ME is part of life..

What all ME’s and how much of ME’s is that I need or expect from others...is what I have to be clear!!!!

4 – 0 - was more than what I thought :-)

I had wondered if Joachim Low was the right choice when Klinsmann gave his way…
For Klinsmann was my star in 2006...and can’t stop admitting that I had a crush on him…!!!
The team proved it right yesterday…when the score hit 4-0 with Aussies….
Guess , I wasn’t in any doubts that the match would be in favor…
For the favourite - the golden boot - Klose was on the field…
His 11th goal in world cup career…..no surprises that it was a header..
as he had scored most of them in the same way…
Being his third world cup this time, his experience showed up the way for others in the team too..:-)

You rock.. …Miroslav Klose!!!
Just wanna see you score more… may be a 4 more hits away to break the world record..:-)

hm…i missed Zidane on the grounds this time – and in any other matches other than with Germany , you would see me cheer this season for France..too…!!!


I love to watch world cup – no matter what – remember all those years in my teenage…
having sleepless nights – just to see the match…fights @ home for staying awake late nights!!
This time as its in SA – lucky enough to get some sleep by 2am – and rush to office in the mornings!!
I don’t know when that passion for football swallowed me ....more than cricket..!!
None of the teams were my favourite… each time I used to revolve around players… Maradona, Beckham , Bagio, Baichung , Ronaldo, Zidane.....

But yeah, since 2002 .. I support Germany .. :-)
last time they missed…but this time I am sure….they are gonna lift the cup (fingers crossed)

I know it’s after a long time I am scribbling something, but feeling good , that the trigger had to be from FIFA.

The Dog in the Bus

Lazy Monday morning, the rush to office….. reached the bus stop….
As usual – waiting for the bus number 201D….one came eventually after 5 minutes..
As not much ladies were at the bus stop – I was sure if I board the bus I would get a seat for sure.

I took the 2 steps and got inside the bus…
Guess what…..
A dog inside near the second seat….…. as if ready to travel!!!
I was a bit surprised and got afraid as it looked like a stray dog..
I gave a look to driver, then conductor , both acting normal!!
Cmon how am I to get inside the bus its standing on the way!!
I stared at it, the look on its face told me “I am not going to bite you”
Ok….fine…. I tried to act as if i was not afraid, I crept slowly and it moved and i sat near to it..

The conductor instructed the dog with actions and it got down….Once all ladies boarded, it jumped back to the bus …
Is that his dog!! All boarding the bus were a bit shocked of the scene happening…..
The old lady in the bus started the conversation.. The driver described the scene..
“…it has boarded from JB nagar, and travelled these 10 km to this last stop….now what? The bus is going back, so can drop it to that place…from where it boarded…Its not doing any harm….may be its lost don’t know why it boarded ? so let it be here….”

As the crowd in the bus got more – no place for the dog….!!! At las, made it get down. The driver showed no sign to the dog which was staring at the closed door!!
Bus started….
.. I wondered how it will find its way back to JB nagar…Where it actually wanted to go? What if my doggie was lost like that….. Somewhat felt helpless to help it!!

Monday morning traffic –sucks – seemed to ride a bullock cart!!
Reached the Sony world signal where the bus would halt for more than 20 minutes due to the signals..just three stops passed and bus was jam packed…
After 3 minutes….hard to believe my eyes….The dog is standing near to the bus door…
Now its upto the driver to press the button and open the door!! But cant do that… as the bus is full already….and all women would panic if he steps in!!
I guess it wanted to travel back to Jeevan Bhima nagar….may be that’s its home.
Driver whistled for the conductor and he came!! Hm… tricky situation for the conductor – should we leave the dog here? Or take him back?
He asked the dog to follow him…It silently followed him and made it board another truck that goes to its place...

Good people do exist in this world….I felt happy and my lazy morning washed out!!
Atleast - loved to see something unusual – different from the normal routine!!
And I am sure whoever watched this scene today...in the bus, at the signal would have felt it..!! It was a good Gud morn message…
“Love Animals!! They too are just like us :-)“

Forgetting the Recycle bin…

Some experience in life – if its good we always want them to be cherished. We never forget them.
But some, if it’s a bad one that caused pain, tear, embarrassment or failure – we just want them out of memory.
I often do the same – good memories – relive them at most of the times making life beautiful.
And never never try to think of the bad times that I came across in life…
But I wonder why this ridiculous, stupid, terrible old bad moments come to me at times and make my life out of tune?
Guess I failed to do something…like I forgot to learn something….?

I strive to avoid and run away from the unwanted strain in my life…
I don’t care about those things in life that takes away a smile from me…
I always remember to delete stressful things…and put them all in my bin….
But it’s so true that I keep forgetting this bin of mine..

I stare at the Recycle bin on my computer..…more than 3000 items..:-)
That number counts from Jan 2010 – that is 3000 items for 40 days.??
I wondered then ; I can’t blame my life- for my mind is still carrying some old junk!!
Is up to me if I want to really delete or keep them still in my life…
Restore option in the bin- makes me think – Is this to repair the terrible bad past stuffs and give a thought on it?
Is it kept so – that I can make use of these in my life somewhere in the coming days….
I realize it’s up to me if I want to delete or restore a stuff that’s already there in my bin…

I forget that my mind is a recycle bin – not at times – may be always…
May be I never understand the meaning of this word ‘Recycle’ in my life…

!!

Trying to wear those bangles that are already broken to pieces!!

cluttering mind and muddled words..

What do I write for…??
I write to be in touch to the body and the soul…
Yes , I write whatever is melting inside me…
And in case If seen…is only the smoke…
And the melted doesn’t tastes good…..
Yeah!! I have to struggle more..!!

What do I write for…??
I write to be in touch to the heart and the mind…
Yes, I write whatever is burning inside me…
And in case If seen…..is only the smoke..
And the blaze fire doesn’t show up…
Yeah!! I have to struggle more..!!

[[Thinking of fire, it’s such an unbeatable element in this world…
The fire in which the clay goes hard and the one in wax melts..
Embrace the pain and use this fire to burn it as fuel for the journey…
Or get haunted with the flames and be buried in its fuming rage]]

My first conversation....

I was a bit nervous...yes of course...
I had the intention of getting some papers signed from her and leaving in a while...
Considering the busy schedule a Vice president of an organization would have... I marked only one minute for the job.
After 2 days – I got an appointment….and there I am – today 12 clock noon...at the big cabin...

I got a seat…and she helped in completing the job I went for!!!!Done.
Hey cmon – time to leave dear...A thanks and that’s it….!!!
I was about to lift my butt from the cozy chair...then the conversation began…
Official….talks….regarding life in office…
How am I finding here ? Hows work? What most u like.. any problems u wanna discuss to me or share...
Yes, it was truth - I replied – if somebody asks me how it is , I would rather say m doing great – than saying doing good.
For I am really happy with my job..the place I work in. A resume history....was given on the demand...:-)
Then we moved on to a bit personal....of my family..my stay..life smooth?
I exchanged a HRU question with her…and that’s it...
I shoudn’t make a blah..blah..blah…Neat and clean - ok, Thanks a lot… :-)

Quit from there!!!
Outside the cabin - I thanked her secretary too... and left the floor...

"The senior most person in the organization.. a person whom we rarely see in the cabin…or in office..."Always seemed to me - talking point to point – well that was my previous experiences….
But this was a bit more than what I expected in the meeting...

I admired her, for her looks, for her profile….for the sshttyle...she carries herself....even at this age!!!!
Now I guess – I do it a bit more....the factor added - atleast she knows me now!!!
Maya Vidhya – It was nice talking to you...today!!!