Ready to mourn, discuss, debate, post !!!

A message in my mobile from my cousin...morning 8:30 am....
I smiled inside and felt like , yes finally....it happened.
I wished if Kasab repented the act he did by his heart – that he was able to forgive himself..
Good, good…. had to be one day....though late...it’s good..I replied that message with a smiley.. :-)

So it’s a big day….expected the newspaper and channels to be filled with news..
some riots? no.....may be some processions and gathering may be in mumbai....
and of course FB filled with this news and articles, opinions...

Though sensed justice is incomplete, felt like...this is a start...
India is strong enough to take this decision - it made me feel I am part of this strength too...
and I felt happy too...yes I felt really happy….that some sort of actions we can take …
Then the usual pros and cons started in my mind...
The mercy plea rejection by honorable President of India marked the start of it….what provoked him?
I wondered what was our PP doing for the past years? was she afraid to take the decision....?
Or is it like this is another move by the government - to make sure they did something before the elections kick off .....
is it to cover up all the scams that is floating and have their shoulders lift high so to be the hero...
Will they pull out others too... in the list.... take a decision on it? Or in fear of the community votes - they will never dig them out…?

But why am I thinking like this , why am I politicizing this matter in my mind?
Terrorism has no politics, no religion the only religion it knows is ‘Kill to Live, then you can Die to Kill’

I saw in the news channels MAA Kasab’s photo after long time.. I remember his face so well...
Then I saw the faces of those martyrs who died in the 26/11..
but I had forgotten their faces..now I saw them...
I recollected and remember them....(shame on me)
I remembered that I had prayed for their souls 4 years back....
.....that they died for us, for people like me..


Couldn’t watch the news more as it was just junk...for everything without a pinch of politics is like a dustbin item in our media...
Haven’t got changed with this execution…the channel news and media proved it yesterday again…!!

Always a picture is drawn - that India by birth – is very tolerant….
But in actual I wonder are we….? are we all saying that we can wait and have patience….
We will wait to see these wiped off after some time and not right now?
Or is it that in real we are not yet ready to handle terrorism....
Guess we are not ready to stand the after effects of these capital punishments?
It’s like we are still in some fear… some fear of being crushed…?

Perhaps we are just ready and always here to mourn…
Yes only to mourn, discuss, debate, post and remember the anniversary…
at least… I am doing only that..:-( :-(

Taliban - now all I feel is pity !!

Millions of people die every year....
Those who die for fighting for freedom, for their rights...
without any hidden intentions...they are the real hero's of this world..

But this girl.....no ..not so soon...
She is not among one who should become a memory in our heads...
This is a fight for education....fight she started for everyone like her...
..fight for every single girl in her city, in her country,..
yes in mine too......where girls are not being educated still...
Mostly education is denied due to family conditions, poverty and sometimes the meaningless traditional/society rules ....
But denying freedom to education in name of religious values that does not exist is a shameful one....
Its something that no one should take away...from any of us....

Taliban - a word of fear to me some time back in 2000...
...reading news and incidents - this word seemed to me a horror engulfing the world...
But now - no longer....no longer this word brings in a fear....
They are just a group of cowards who has a gun and know how to use them..nothing more...!!
They live in fear of extinction of their ideas...
... though never admit - they live in fear of death....
they live in name of a religion and a god built to suit their actions..
no longer I fear them, rather in this moment all i feel is pity for them.
Yes, I pity of them... for sure they are terrified of a 14 year old..

A young mind has brought this light to many of us....

This light is born from the darkness that reached its heights..and thats why its glowing so bright...
may be she survived to prove - that its not so easy to blow that off..
I wondered when I started writing this now - why am i moved by her so much...
why this girl is holding a special place in my heart...? Why am i checking news for her recovery...
she has made a difference, she has made a mark, she is done it in her own way...
may be she is the new young voice of every girl...
and the faith and power in her words is the strength every girl needs.
defining her in my own words wouldn't be enough for the courage she showed...


Was I bit late in expressing my thoughts for her.... were all of us late to keep her safe.....?
Or she had to take this upon her - for all of us to be awakened?
Malala - the name meaning 'grief stricken' - Hope she gets recovered soon...just gets recovered soon..
so she can come back and see - that she isn't alone...the world is with her...!!!

My voice is on my wall, so is yours...!!!

Facebook is on my favorites, most visited, recent history, recently closed tabs... I hope many of us do have the same name on their browser or on their ipad, iphone or so called tablets...

Many of us - just like me - use this to stay in touch with friends, acquaintances, have fun, play games, meet old school friends, make new friends, hunt jobs....and much more... Yes. Orkut, twitter, fb, linkedn all of them for sure helped me in many ways...but is this really working out for me in ways I really want to? Is this really working out for all of us as it should – or is FB controlling our emotions?

Is this blue page slowly painting my relations blue? what if these social sites is in actual driving my relations? Is posting on my friend's wall really giving the same feel as I would give it in person...? Staying in touch with FB is giving me an excuse to call them ? meet them ? maybe even message them or email them? Why do I expect my friends to know my life's action, good news, bad news, my thoughts.....through FB? and why do they have to give an excuse "I posted on FB, u didn't know, u didn't see?"


Is this wall really helping my relations ? Is it there to build or drift us in ways we never knew...? There used to be times where at least a call made sure that we are in touch... but nowadays my voice is on my wall and I hear my friend/family through their likes and comments.
Are you waiting for my smile and tears on the wall?
Will you recognize my voice if I happen to give a call?
Or am I the real Dumbo here- my friends and family do expect a call or a post on FB is enough for them?

Thoughts churning inside me - on how FB is taking relations to new directions….!!!!!
My relation with you grows with the number of posts on ur wall, my likes, my comments... if I stay on your timeline every second does that make me your good close buddy? Are we all starting to judge and measure our relations with the count of likes and comments ?
This blog post is eventually gonna hit on my wall – and yes no shame in admitting that I keep a watch on who likes , # of likes? who comments on this etc…..?
So is this open book really making my social life come into a vertex where there is no escape?

Huh!!!! Is this just another crazy thought running in my head -? Or let me guess...Am I slowly feeling to get bored of fb? Or am I trying to judge this wall? Or is it poking me so much that I need to take break from this blue window ?

For my love… For my dear…

Remembering our good old days….
Fun days at School, Plus two, NSS days,
Our great lifetime Gujarat trip...

Bunking classes...Kavitha theatre...
Baby beach…Sajani’s house out...
Vasuettan pazhampori...18 number bus..
Our coaching classes in tcr...
Train journeys…bus seats one on lap top…
My night stays at Domlur..
Outing in restaurants...
Roaming and window shopping...
Shopping until the night is dark...
Grabbing and hogging food like crazy..
Watching Gandhi class movies like old times..
Little Italy and celebrations...
Those seashell Biriyani and the bottles we collected..
Typical girly talks when there is a threesome...
Searching lost things in room...


Fame aerobics every day...salsa dance and crussover…:-)
Gossiping about all the other things in the world..
Watching those meaningless serials on TV..
The endless list of memories I hold with you..
Beyond words it is...and I don’t need to express this...
For I am so lucky you can hear my silence....!!!

No matter how much old you are ...no worry...just come to me...
I am there to lie to you - “hey...you look beautiful today”

Keeping my Self in your Shelf..

Did you ever had time to see my changes?
How much I changed and why I had to change...
What is that I feel now ,how far I changed...
How can you know me now...feel me now...?
All the while you were busy in your own life!!
Never once you looked at the shelf of yours..
How badly my shape had changed in there..

And now that I got out of your shelf today..
All you can see is the scars I have on me..
Bringing back in the change to stay alive..
Now that I am polishing and adoring me..
Trying to fix the self that got lost in ur shelf..
The selfish you in you just cracked up..huh?
All you can judge me in a word is Selfish!!

Your Birthday...:-)

Your birthday is a special day to me..
For I was born that day again as a sister....


You gave me a chance..
to hold you so close..
to understand the first feeling of care...
to feel trust that can never be broken.
to learn how to punch back in the fights..
to get hurt when you are in pain...
to love you and know that there is no limits...
to know that you are there when I fall..
to show my dark sides and tolerate with it...
to make me feel how much special I am...

You are my precious gift that life gave me...
A treasure….I can never lose with time or age...
Unsaid promises we share...with each other..
Silent whispers that keep our bond together..


With each passing day you are just being loved more.. :-)
With every moment You are a reason to love you more.. :-)

To be in your shoes...and feel the life!!!

"Just a scribble of thoughts on the show today - episode 6"

Sometimes pity them...Sometimes feel discomfort…
Sometimes a sad sight…Sometimes a helping mind….
I can never know the plight of any disabled person….
Unless I am in their shoes…waking every day..
If a day I walk on crutches, spend a day blind or dumb…
Would not be enough to know their true state…
Unless I am in their state...living the life…
Will I ever know what they feel about reactions..

Initiatives are to come from institutions and industries…
The e-learning software company of 250 disabled employees...
That just proved how to make this possible…
Government has to do more in this area – in bringing a rule...or a law..
And that should cover both public and private sector...rather just government institutions…

Writing on this topic - running short of words…
May be my experience in life is holding back my words..

The poll question was a bit embarrassing to me after a thought..
Do we need a poll - if government needs to make disable friendly environment?
Pathetic are we - figuring out – how sooner we need it in 5 years or 10 years?

Hmm.. the Euro cup 2012 – has taken away all my attention , time and energy in spending my thoughts and words on this episode…
Well can’t deny – in the end – I am a self who likes football and when I deal with passion – I put them first in the queue… :-)



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Where there is love – is there a way out ??

"Just a scribble of thoughts on the show today - episode 5"

Breaking the tradition, Hurting the sentiments, Betraying your religious belief ..
Fed into the heart and heads of whoever is born and brought up in this country...
Even I am one of them....and who still does not have found a way to break this unsaid rule or visible boundaries...!!!

Lucky are those - who fall in love, find their true partner, and their love gets bonus picked to spend a life together..
May be I should not say lucky - the word is Bravo!!! Strong love that just hit the souls enough to cross all boundaries..
Like in the Bollywood - "Duniya hai dushman -Dushman se he ladna"!!!! all those who fight and win – either die or have a happy ending...:-)

I am not expecting any change of this scene - even a bit at all - from the show that was hosted.

It’s easy to put the blame on the tradition, culture and practices we following...
But India is full and rich of those values only…and that tradition is already created boundaries and breaking the wall built over a thousand years is not just easy.
Even though we see a modern India - lies beneath the real truth at every home, every town and every city where metro runs!!

Did the show just poke only the middle class, lower class, not-so educated - tradition minded people...?
Are we seeing only the "sarpanch ka faisla" here? and the show just peeped into that...
Crucifying the Panchayat was the only thing ? huh!!! Can’t you see anything on the television and internet in this modern world?
Community matrimony.com??? didn’t the hell just got bigger with all these...!!
Looks like Mr. Perfectionist didn't have those sites or add come closer to his eyes…
Or you were just so afraid to bring it on - as religion is something that everyone is afraid to touch...?

Didn’t the episode had more to cover – the real values that our country beholds tied with religion , caste as well as family values!!!
May be a highlight on the surrounded issues where killing your own love - in need of love… in middle of roads….
An insight into the crumbling minds of youth – in teenage, in their 20’s – amidst the chain pull process of leading their love to a success..

Naah…. Guess I am deviating the topic….May be the show just dealt with killing in name of love, for love, killing of busted girlfriends or boyfriends...sons, daughters...
That’s it ....nothing more - nothing less...I just have to believe that for now....

All these years in my life – in a middle class family of mine – where these values hold great strength - these boundaries never seemed a boundary.
But when true love is found - across these boundaries – then I guess these just become visible and feels like a chain that has to be broken…!!!

I wonder in such cases "where there is love - is there a way out... or is that true love isn't enough and needs that extra something?"



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When your colour changes...

It all started with this...
I just came...I go green...

I see grey....I know he is offline
I wonder....if invisible mode?

I see green....I know he is available
I guess....chatting with whom?

I see orange....I know he is away
I reason....away for long time?

I see green....I know he is available
I confused...should I ping him?

I see orange....went away again...
I depressed...should’ve pinged!!!

I see him green...available again..
I ponder..let me start with a hi..!!



I see him green... still green...
I think...is he really free?

I see orange....oh idle again..
I guess ...busy in other windows?

I see red...oh busy now..
I shout.....I wanna talk...

I see red...busy still...
I miserable...why so busy?

I see green...ahh..free...
I type...’hey u there ?’

I see grey....what..??
I sigh....there goes ’hey u there ?’

I see grey...still see grey...
I go glum...not interested...?

It all ended....waited for green..
I better go now.....I go grey!!!

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"Just a scribble of thoughts on the show today - episode 4"

‘Talwar’ - se Takrar.....the sword is hanging right above my head...
What an episode to prove that authority can never take a decision for people like us...
Mortified of you KK Talwar....you just proved I can never see an action from your side...
We never can expect any healing from you...
“% kehna mushkil hoga....” – what the ‘F’ ... - should I be taking the statistics for you?
You seemed like a 5 year old kid – fumbling for words to justify the question...from Aamir...
I think you would have preferred to have scripted dialogues that would have suited your needs....
Do you need a ten years more to study the situation of the nation and then step on to the action plate...?
Or maybe you can start to take an action once your chair earned you enough bank balance...!!!
A Padma Bhushan in your pocket does not give any damn to me..... rather it makes me ponder whether you know what you need to know of what is MCI?

When thought of writing of the episode – couldn’t help to break out like this...
Made me feel once again....change is possible only through me, through us... only with coming generation....

No one in our society escapes from a doctor or hospital....in their lifetime...
And we can’t stop trusting them - in times of need....in times of emergencies....
“Never hide anything from doctors” – but are they transparent enough to us?
The need for a family doctor.... is become like a must – to – live factor in everyone’s life...
And I got scared – thinking I have only 2 of my friends who are doctors – in my generation. Should I have a doctor friends circle soon?
Have I to be my own savior - by always having a second opinion on any major treatment I am going through...?
I personally have an experience with one of my cousin – where a technician in hospital turned out to act like a doctor and tried to give treatment...
Also the attitude of almost all doctors when they diagnose people above 70 years – like ‘ We have done enough- Old age- Anyway have to die sooner”
Will this ever change.....

The show gave me a shock this time too – where the villagers had to grieve on the uterus removal.... :-(
Whoever did the same looks like forgot that – he/she – came from the same uterus..
And stealing away her own womb, for which she is born for in this world – is the worst anyone can do to her.
Am I really living and breathing the same air..... in such a country?

Can I Say “Enough is enough – All of you doctors be ready to take off your white coats, we are getting you Red ones dipped in blood!!

Initiative of general medicine... is something to look forward... to act upon...
Each one of us at one point will benefit from that for sure... an SMS ‘Y’ for certain this time!!
Atleast half of my retirement money won’t be going on medicines.....!!


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"Just a scribble of thoughts on the show today - episode 3"

Having watched Saturday CL final match and slept late like 4am - somehow managed to wake up at 11.....

My guess turned out to be right this time...
Since last Sunday I was wondering what topic next? that can capture our hearts...that can hit numbers in large...
Dowry issue - nothing other than that....That turned to be the one too....

I don't know - somehow I felt the seriousness just went a little below this time?
The issue discussion somehow went like - "yes yes yes we all know this, society is having this issue", "may be we can try, but this problem is ....."
And about the cutting down prices in marriages, or having simple ritual at own marriage...I wonder how far it would be agreed upon...
Nobody wants to have the so called 'D' day in their life be a dry day... nor any parents of the bride/groom would want to feel they did less for the marriage..
(at least if u ask me, i wouldn't want a too simple one....its a special day... and i should get a little feel of Big Fat Indian wedding)

I liked two of the comment in the show :
"As a woman - I can even give birth to babies, men - you cant even do that..."
"If want to have a big fat wedding, the bride and groom should do it on their expense, not on family expense"

I still have no clue on what path this problem can take for a solution...
Especially in a country like ours -where the word 'Bidhai' comes - for the parents to their daughter - they ought to spend every penny for their daughter.
Is the root grounded firm with our Indian culture?

Strange - but i feel the stories and facts ....makes me wonder - will this issue ever solve?
1) Daughter have to leave her home after marriage... (so y not give her all I have now to my daughter, be it dowry as gold or cash or flat ?)
2) Only her dead body should come out of her sasuraal house...( so y not give her, so she can have a good life with whatever we give)
3) 'Pati Paremeswar' concept - where every girl , and in some states even the bride's father touches the groom's feet!!!
4) Forgive your husband & his family and listen to them - they are you parents, your family now!! (what happened to my parents? (A mom is always a mom, a mother in law can never be my mom)
5) Sath Janam - related stuffs, every other thing related to religions, cultures - makes this word called 'marriage' a big one
6) Most cases parents do think it will be difficult to get a groom- if my daughter becomes over qualified..
7) Plan my son's career and life based on the dowry amount....and put him on the best education
Its all in the mind set - where we are already spoon fed with some things like above,...so hard to change...
Also hardly an open discussion with children and parents comes on marriage expenses....

Is it feasible - that instead of resolving 100 cases, take any one strong tortured case - in dowry related - give punishment to related people...!!
A punishment that you never want in a lifetime.... at least one head gets cut off - for the same - then people may realise...!!
Does it feel too much to CHOP a HEAD in this case? Then here lies the problem - coz some of us still don't feel this as a crime....

You wont believe a conversation I had with one of my colleague.. on why he wants to go Onsite(abroad for work).
"I am planning for marriage in this year...If i go onsite , US of course, at least for 6 months, then my dowry amount will increase by 10 Lakhs, and people will be ready to give a car as well..."
I never heard a better reasoning from anyone for deputation to onsite...it just made me dumb, and left me with no points to argue with him...!!
The fact was then clear to me - its not a problem - no one feels this as a problem.....
Its just like a supply chain market - if you have More Tags attached to you... the More is the price...
So in real aren't the guys carrying a pluck card "Ready for Marriage - Interested in My tags, My price"!!

Pledging not to take dowry, not to give dowry, and moreover not to witness any marriage with dowry system - high hopes and dreams to touch sky!!

But I can do my bit.... I want a man, not a bunch of tags I bought with money!!!
My decision is firm - No giving dowry or taking dowry...!!!


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The Sunday alarm woke me up this time at 10am..
Having had an impact with the first episode of it - I felt not to miss..
The topic that got picked out this time is just a strong one.... I would say stronger than first!!

The show followed the same pattern, an intro , statistics, experiences, opinions , what was done over the years ? what action can we do on it?
The introduction was kept to some dialogues as we expected from the perfectionist...
Statistics 53% :- if reported is 53 - it has to be more..isn't it? How many of us - if we were - would still have the dare to say "I was abused sexually when I was a child"
Experience shared :- so daring and brave to come in front of the nation and report it. Hats off to them in having done the same in a country like ours.
What was done over the years :- Felt an unsaid shame that no law has been passed for these ever ; and that oral penetration cannot be considered as a crime? phew..!!!
Action :- fast track to pass the bill - I am in hope - a little hope but not much this time....
Workshop: - Yes it was clear to kids -the idea of body guard is interesting to every one...Every parent has to strive to be one!!
I messaged a 'Y' this time too... A huge movement on corruption had got side tracked ....that bill is in bits and pieces now... I don't now what plight this bill will take in future...
May be my doubt is not the outcome of the action...
I guess I am still unsure if this bill or law will actually resolve the problem or stop an abuser from making a move!!

It does not depend on any law, any country, any rule, any society values...or social status...
The root cause of this is silence...as the show title clearly stated...
And breaking the silence is not so easy....
The natural transition of an innocent soul to a brave soul is just crumbled into pieces - at an age of not knowing how to fix it.
and as said...the real tragedy of life is what dies inside a person while he/she lives...
Whoever gone through this trauma - may never forget or forgive the person for the act....
but when it comes to forgiveness I remember this one recited on Oprah show:
"Forgiveness is giving up hope that the past could have been any different"

I still feel the show may not have impacted or created awareness in all groups...
still there would be many of them out who would sure feel - this will never happen in my family.
The news that come out are related to only children getting abused in schools, sport coaching centers, tuition classes etc....Shocking is when kids or parents who comes out with a case suffer the side effects like one would never had thought!!
Hardly 10% of the cases come out - for an abuser who is inside own family....
So cant blame - there is a natural tendency we all feel - of course cannot be in my family!!! My family and relatives are safe!!

As an elder sister - I remember how cautious I was about my younger sisters - whenever I am with them - taking an extra little care on everything they do, who they are with, where they go, what they talk... keeping on safe side of the road - so no nerveless guy dashes them on purpose, putting them in side seat of the bus...giving money to a auto driver or shopkeeper - making sure no touching on purpose.....and much more...... the list is endless!!!

Its just not up to one child to find his/her bodyguard, its up to all of us to help them find a true one!!!
I feel all the time - the best way is to share our experience to younger ones....
Sharing even the slightest experience one had - like road teasing , poking in crowded bus /trains...
...and discussing with them how we ourselves handled it or how we could have better handled it...
May be in that kind of talks - they get a sense of trust..a bond comes in naturally....and that will make them strong enough to share things to us...

"I can be your bodyguard only if you trust me, so I am ready to share me to build your trust"

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Sunday..Sunday..Sunday...no waking up thinking tomorrow is Monday......
but guess what , I got up at sharp 11...!!
Yeah the Sunday morning wakeup call - didn't want to miss that.
a TV show from the so called perfectionist .. didn’t expect much...I never gave a damn to his crocodile acts!!
I wondered if it just was a celebrity show....something to do with his next film?
But the show just got me glued to the TV....
'Satyamev Jayate' - The episode just gets into one's heart, creeps immediately into the mind..
and it just started bombarding lots of questions in me too...

Yes...the topic was a shameless secret that our country is still holding!!!
The show just kept it simple, brought in statistics, actions...as well..
The darkest act was just not one deed of killing the girl child,
but it gave a shiver in my spine thinking the ripples it gives to us as girls..
This was not new to us, not new to me...the episode gave the cause, the roots of it...
Any magazine or news channel can do this, but I can say this show connected to me!! yeah!!

Went back to my normal Sunday routine, then couched to TV in the evening..
accidentally slipped in with repeat telecast....I watched it again..
Am I going to stay as a potato couch in this case too?
what can I do - I am just a "mango person" the "aam aadhmi" in this country..
I cannot do anything in this case....can I?
hmmm...but yes I still can vote on the same...
Logged into FB, clicked 'Like', shared in my comments, expressed my support!!!
Be it show tactics, or the usual SMS funda's.....in every TV shows....
I didn't care....this time...SMS ed a 'Y' ...

Deep inside a thought came in - I should feel lucky to be born in this country.
I am so glad and I thank my parents, my family for that...they never had a second thought on me....when i was born...!!
and all those ladies and girls..whom i know in my life, my sisters, my friends, my colleagues...yeah guess we need to be lucky our sex is ‘F’ !!!
and....ahh...guess if we are lucky , then we should be glad to be born in this 'Bharat Mata' country !!!

It's too such a short time to judge a show...in the first episode..
Was the topic so catchy to me, being a girl...? anyways was a good one.
And I hope it continues to give me an alarm every Sunday morning!!

'Satyamev Jayate'

If you...

If you are still mad at me – for a wrong thing I did some time back…?
If you still plan to whine all time for the same thing and make me feel bad..?
Then I need to tell u now..
I no longer give a damn to that….!!! No more give a damn to what you think.
If you can’t feel I am sorry, you can never feel my love for you..!!

Stepping to the era of 30's!!

“Happy Birthday” – A wish where you actually feel so happy, and so special…
It’s a moment where everyone you are close with – remembers your day and wishes you – either with a card or mail or call….

In my thirteens to mid-twenties wishes always came in card or posts…
Then it started pouring in sms, orkut, fb wall posts, e-cards, emails….
This time I got loads of writings on my wall….Thanks to FB for being there to remind my friends !!
Whoever expected – called, but some of them didn’t….. I hope they remembered my bday…:-)
Whoever not expected – called, and some of them messaged…I hope they remember next year too..:-)
And there was a load of messages and mails from sbi, airtel, reliance, scullers, max new York, tata , westside, citibank, tech forums… :-)

How these birthday wishes changed with time….is a thought giver!!

The first step into 30’s is never pleasing…. It’s like entering another phase of your life….
When stepping into thirty - yes – everyone might have said this to themselves “I am turning 30!!”
At least all of my close friends (esp girls) had given a sigh about it…:-)
I don’t know about all others… but yes getting into thirties – make me feel a bit bothersome!!
Is it coz I am getting a year older?
Or is it coz another decade of my life is done?
Or entering 30’s is like really a big step where you leave your youth??
Fear of missing the wonderful , youthful days and having an aged feeling??
Was it coz I had an amazing twenties….in my life… and those moments are like best ones!!
Time for being naughty, flirty and dirty just got over?

I celebrated my bday this time at home – with my family and cousins…it was great!!
The day ended with replying to posts – and I am happy more than 50 posts had hit my bday wall!!

Still a thought was hanging inside - I have turned 30 today!! 

The best friends I ever knew!!

The only friend you have, had and will always have..
I think I know who it is.. It’s CHANGE…

Time’s best friend - ( a fictional thought )

No one would dare to make friends with you…
Why would anyone want to get stuck with time…?
I am all the while fighting with you to make a living.
Why should I tolerate your tastes and your dramas..?
Who will stick to you forever and would want to?
You are already so much in love with Change…
You hold on to Change in every tick of yours..
The only best buddy you want to be with …

Your relation with change is so horrifying to me…
And sometimes it acts as the way to happiness..
Your relation with change is so annoying to me..
And sometimes it’s so very soothing too..
It helps me feel new passions, new relations, new aches..
It helps me give new promises, new chances, new pains..
It helps me grow old, grow strong, grow wise..
It helps me see new paths, new sunrise, new life..

I don’t know whether I should be happy that you both are best buddies.
But it’s true your relation with change influence my life a lot..
I don’t think I would ever able to decide why you both are best friends…
But it’s true your relation with change helps me decide my best friends…

When I was born , I was tied to you...
Just like you were tied to Change..

I realize you– that with time - change is a must..
How hard I try – I can never separate you both..
You are the best friends I ever knew!!
If I embrace time, I am holding hands with change too!!!


P.S. - I wanted to express more - but not able to write more on the relation with time and change!! They both share a relation that I can never express in my simple , silly words!!

My first flight and trip to Delhi

After the Great news on my mobile...
there came hell lots of confusions between the US and Mexico – finally decided to go with Mexican Visa…
I had only one thought - back of my mind… chances of refusal or rejection of my dad’s visa if I go with the US one….
I was not ready to take a chance with him...nor ready to get risky…
This is like a biggest gift I can give to my dad…ever…
For all the hard work, efforts, time , my parents had put…so as to put me in this spot light..:-)
I couldn’t take a little risk to lose this chance….couldn’t let him loose this chance…

The application forms, and required documents ….got in hand on time
Filed the application with the travel agents..
God, travel agents SUCKS!!! You can’t rely any of them…
Travel, Visa, consulate rules, Air tickets, transit rules…all goddamn rules – trust me you have to go through it by yourself…
One lesson learnt in this 2 weeks… You just have to do your homework all the time in case of travelling..

The only Mexican embassy in India is New Delhi…
Woooh……My first visit to Delhi….
Yipee…!! So my first flight , the first flight I will board will be from Bangalore to Delhi.:-)
Wanted to book a best one….though it was domestic….Went and hit for Jet airways!!!

Dad reached Saturday Morning on 21st Jan…. Sunday was our journey.
22nd we had plans to visit our relatives house…. Hang out there if possible I wanted to roam around delhi..:-)


Boarded the flight, the experience was good.. Jet serves great breakfast!!
Clouds, I always fancied them… and to see them – right outside my window so close - was unbelievable..
The feeling was like – just break the flight glass- jump out and sleep on the bed of clouds…
Thts the click I managed to get from the window..
Hmmmm….!!!

10am – 7 degree ?? Did I land in Kashmir or what?? It was cold than I expected……
Sunday – a good lunch at aunt’s house, followed by the longest temple ride …the Akshardham one!!!
You gotta see that to believe how long was it – 4pm to 9pm – and I think I could cover half the temple 
It’s an easy place to get lost in the crowd – with no cell fones with us!!

Republic day - parade practice , tightened security…I couldn’t roam anywhere else..
Gosh!! Delhi was just as it should be – Capital city – so great!!!
It’s true - I got that feeling of being in the capital once reaching there…

Hit back after dinner to hotel asoka palace…room # 204!!!
Sound sleep , long day…
Got up early; we both just walked to the embassy….
2 people managing the mexican embassy – terrific, horrible what should I call it??
Poor organized – whatever it is they assured I can collect my passport by 5pm.

We went out – for getting sweets..
Decided not to lunch at the hotel we stayed – price was too much to have for that taste ..
We had two pizza’s from slice of Italy…hm, not so good pizza….Delhi serves!!
Boarded my 2nd flight back to Bangalore… by 8pm… just fell asleep after the dinner…served!!

In the end - A good trip to Delhi – With Mexican visa’s stamped on our passport – Half job done..
Heading to start with the next!! My flight is via Paris…and for staying at airport for 5 hrs I need a visa!!!
Phew!!! - France Airport Transit Visa…for my transit is via Paris!!! Next mission!!!

Jan 6th -The great news over my mobile

The call was scheduled at 7:30pm from the CEO....
Yeah.... it was surprising...and great to be heard...!!!
Unbelievable it was...

THE GXS PRESIDENT award - the ULTIMATE ACHIEVEMENT in GXS ; this one is the top one anyone can get here.......!!!

President's award is given every year....selecting the top layer of cream....
I am one of them for this year... Being honored for my valuable contributions to GXS in 2011 for exhibiting great GXS values..!!!
Across the globe - from GXS - I am one among the luckiest 10...I am the only one from India, from GXS -Bangalore office...:-)


The CEO call was about 3 minutes and was informed that I would become member for President's club 2011 and I can travel to Mexico to attend the President's club meeting to receive the award..that falls in Feb mid week. Moreover I can take one guest/friend/family with me for the president's club meeting.. I thanked Bob for making time for the personal call and informing me the great news...

With that call ending...I didn't know what to say to myself...Couldn't react anything much and I kept staring at my mobile - he just called me in person ......ooohhh.....!!!!

Hey, do i deserve this? Cmon....no second thoughts now - I do deserve it...
out of 3000 if i fall in top 10...why should i think I deserve it in real..??
Yeah, I am one of them!!!

Called up home, called up manager - thanked him for nominating me...emailed big boss, told to my close friends......over the weekend...:-)
Oh, God - this is so much of a reward for my hard work...:-) what a start to 2012..

The next week registration mail came for the event... That took my breath away!!!
Feb 12th to Feb 16th - A series of event lined up for my award...:-) A relaxation - vacation package..at the resort...in Mexico...clubbed with GXS functions..

I need to get my visa, tickets, lots of things pending and time is so less..
Yeah, decided that my dad is gonna accompany me to Grand Velas Riviera Maya, at Cancun-Mexico....

My first project in this new year 2012 turns out to be "My Award Journey to Mexico"
Start Date : Jan 6th 2012
In progress : First phase - Gathering requirements...:-)